So I am now in the puree stage of my post-op eating regimen, but I am finding it incredibly difficult to eat anything. Now let me clarify that by saying the actual act of eating and keeping food down isn't what is hard... food still smells good and tastes good when I eat, but I just literally feel so grossed out while I am eating. I have been following my surgeons recommendations of not drinking 30 min before and after my meals, and I am taking tiny bites and making sure to spread it out over a good 20 minutes... but I just hate feeling like I am having to force myself to eat rather than enjoying that I get to eat. I am definitely not over eating my any means either and I never feel like I am satisfied after eating, but definitely too grossed out to eat a little more. I know it isn't too uncommon, but for any of ya'll who have experienced this or are feeling it now, how are you dealing? Will it get better soon? I'm just miserable and trying to get in all of the stuff my surgeon tells me too but it is feeling overwhelming and impossible.

I think we have to rethink what 'satisfaction' is. It's HARD. When I made my favorite creamy tomato Soup a few days ago, I had to rethink old portions. It used to be a favorite comfort food--and I'd usually eat two bowls. I barely got in a saucer full, and I knew I was done. My old comfort food isn't a comfort anymore. I have to find satisfaction elsewhere. My satisfaction has to be in getting a job done, a errand finished or a sewing project done. I eat to keep my organs working. And ohhhh my goodness it's so hard to wrap my head around this sometimes.