Hey folks, *waves*

Well when I went in for the pre testings in June they found very tiny stones I mean tiny. I am going to have my gallbaldder removed so that I don't have to worry about this later on down the line.

There is a two fold reason I have chosen to do this. The first is, I really want to cement into place good habits and not rush into things. Yes, I've been preparing for over a year now but more time will be good.

The second and most important is this, I want to ease my father I love him dearly and now that he is retired from school and home for the summer months as well as the rest before he gets started into his real estate business there will be time for him to physically see with his own eyes the work that I've been putting into this venture.

Honestly sense my dog passed away I've been binge eating at 3 am in the morning and he's been gently calling me on it. I like that our father daughter bond has strengthened sense I've been home from Mercy Ministries 3 years ago. My dad is correct in that if I don't get the 'head habits of bingeing under control they are highly likely to rear their head two or three years down the line.

It's been hard this past week, I've been gentle with myself as others here have suggested in the thread about my 14 year old dog passing this past July 11th.

In my heart of hearts I know that this needs addressing. And in the future, there will be other losses disappointments folks passing away etc. So now is a real life example on working through this now before hand. A fire escape plan if you will.

I've agreed to try these herbal supplements called slim success (my dad is into all natural so for him I'm giving it a shot) I can return the bottle and get a full refund no questions asked the company will send return postage etc.

While my dad is here, I want to demonstrate that I've been preparing for this and have truly left no stone unturned and that yes, the last thing you would do is surgery.

I've also been faithfully logging my food, even the three am binges into lose it online so that I can show my dad logging over a period of time daily via digital data he can see. I don't have a smart phone so I just write down my food then log it.

I'm pashent and I want my father to be on board, if he still isn't that's OK. I love him regardless. But for his sake I just want to hold out an olive branch to meet him half way.

Edited July 15, 201610 yr by Hannah83

First of all, I am so sorry about your dog. I lost my first dog (that I had since I was 4) when I was 19. It was very hard at first, but I got better.

So, your problem is that you're worried you'll binge eat when something bad happens in your life, even after your surgery? I would say that makes you an emotional eater. Has your surgeon requested that you see a psychologist?