I answered 'of course I'd do it again' in another post, but I often think of what if I NEVER had the lap band.

I'd be at my heightest weight STILL.

I'd be looking at what NEXT program to try.

What ELSE should I spend my hard earned money on?

I'd be feeling all the negative emotions of self-defeat.

Wondering what to wear this summer.

I feel blessed, and yes I'd do it all over again, in a heartbeat.

What would you be doing and feeling if you had not had the lap band?

If I had not had the lap band, I would be laying in bed, trying to drum up enough energy to just get up and get dressed. I hated that the most. It seemed like such a choir to even shower!!!! I love my band!!

I'd be watching my children play, instead of playing with them. Quick kissing my husband before bed instead of making love. Living the life that I couldn't bring myself to admit was mine.

And it's only been 1 month and 33 lbs...

I love this thing.

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I'm scheduled on Aug 23rd. I can't wait to add to the list! Everytime I think about the struggle ahead of me, I come here and get re-energized! Thanks for the inspiration... I'm so ready.

If I hadn't done this.. and this is only 4 months out..

-I'd still have my crippling back pain, and my body feeling 60 even though I'm only 23 (most important thing to me, and if I didn't lose another pound, it was all worth it.. well of course, if I never gained another pound either)

-I wouldn't be able to wear my 1st major goal pair of skinny jeans I've never been able to squeeze into..that I was able to wear today!

-I'm sure there will be more to come