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I just slimed and pb'd a donut. I have never felt so sick to my stomach...I could literally taste the lard as the stinking thing was undulating in my stoma. NASTY. Why did I even eat it? I wasn't hungry, I resisted temptation while everyone else ate one...and then I tried to eat one. WHY??? Well, I can tell you honestly...it will be a cold day in HELL before I ever ever EVER put a donut in my mouth. blech.. So...what food is it for you that is so not worth it anymore...(And I know that we're not supposed to eat crap food anymore...but life happens and sometimes you have to accept that crap food is sometimes a part of life ie...birthday cakes).... DONUTS SUCK! Rain

Hello all, Thus far, I have never had a skin infection...but I just noticed my belly button (which after losing 102 and having had VERY large twins prior is kind of "hooded"), is red and rather stinky...Obviously some sort of infection. So, do I just put a lotrimin type of cream on it, or do I call the dr. and get it on record that it's infected? You know, in case it helps get my tummy tuck down the line... WWYD? Thanks, Rainer

Hey folks, It's been a very long time since I posted. I've fallen back into old patterns and am in a funk. Here are my excuses: 1. I HATE the new format of this board. HATE IT...I click on Forums to change it back to the old way, but sometimes I forget and the other format just totally drives me nuts! 2. I was too tight---could barely eat solids for three months...bad plan..got a slight unfill and have been porking on everything I oculdn't have for three months. 3. Had surgery in July...Couldn't exercise or lift my kids and needed to totally chill for 6 weeks...not moving quickly becomes a HABIT... 4. Totally eating too much... So there are the excuses...now I just need to stop pigging out...Have a fill scheduled...Oldest is back at preschool...can get back out with the twins ... MUST DO THIS>>>> Any words of encouragement??? Good to be back... Rainer

Re: Last of 2008 Weight Loss Challenge Name_________StartWeight___CurrentWeight______Goal________ToGo ********************************************* * agreatknead........204............190...........180...........10 areellady..........189............189...........159...........30 BIGB...............342............342...........300...........42 BellaPerdente......253............213...........195...........18 Boos02.............258............226...........200...........26 Brandy.............221............205...........191...........14 BrownBear..........240............235...........200...........35 Bunkey1965.........194............174...........170............4 Cadets71...........223.4..........220.4.........189...........31.4 Charlietuna........210............167...........150...........17 Claudine...........250............231...........225............6 CubsGirl17.........172............161...........150...........11 Cutiew/booty.......251............233...........220...........13 cQQlgirl...........195............187...........175...........12 crzytchr...........276............261...........246...........15 Donna113...........199............191...........160...........31 Ekat...............527............172...........152...........19 feefee57...........262............212...........180...........32 FeliciaLevy75......240............216...........190...........26 GillieBean.........304............296...........264...........32 HeatherO...........150............143...........130...........13 Hollie ............l54............154...........125...........29 janesays ..........244............244...........225...........19 Jeni85.............182............182...........160...........22 Jillbeme...........235............203.5.........185...........18.5 Josie74............260............255...........215...........40 judy1023...........231............231...........199...........32 klmsilva...........216............212...........190...........26 legster............183............183...........160...........23 linksmom...........251............236...........200...........36 Liquidbluegal......225............214.6.........199...........15.6 Liz_hager..........161............158...........130...........28 Long2BThin.........253............221...........215............6 lotzasunshine......292............277.5.........250...........27.5 Luu2008............230............199.5.........153...........46.5 Lunabeane..........244............197...........187...........10.0 Mamanmidwife.......295............269...........260............9 Melissa Aguirre ...266............233...........160...........73 Melody2006.........223............223...........173...........50 MiniPearl#2........???............???...........???...........?? Minxz..............299............287...........270...........17 neefam.............238............189...........158...........31 newby23............242............242...........212...........30 odizzzydori........242............242...........199...........43 paige65............252............238...........220...........18 rainer.............236............222...........210...........12 Redtulips3.........180............175...........160...........15 reif78.............294............195...........140...........40 RichardCranium.....338............276...........200...........76 soontobehottie.....201............186...........165...........21 srknepler..........285............249.2.........255..........(5.7) squale.............353............353...........325...........28 SueAZ..............198............193...........150...........43 Sunshine2..........177............167...........160...........07 Suzzzie............305............305...........285...........20 stevegoad..........370............341...........267...........74 Terilynn112........240............226...........199...........41 Truediva...........299............285...........235...........50 thininside28.......255............255...........215...........40 Turler.............219............209...........194...........15 youcandoit!........196............185...........165...........20

Name_________StartWeight___CurrentWeight______Goal________ToGo ********************************************* * agreatknead........204............190...........180...........10 areellady..........189............189...........159...........30 BIGB...............342............342...........300...........42 BellaPerdente......253............217...........195...........22 Boos02.............258............226...........200...........26 Brandy.............221............206...........191...........15 BrownBear..........240............235...........200...........35 Bunkey1965.........194............175...........170............5 Cadets71...........223.4..........220.4.........189...........31.4 Charlietuna........210............167...........150...........17 Claudine...........250............231...........225............6 CubsGirl17.........172............161...........150...........11 Cutiew/booty.......251............234...........220...........14 cQQlgirl...........195............187...........175...........12 crzytchr...........276............265...........246...........19 Donna113...........199............191.5.........160...........31.5 Ekat...............527............172...........152...........19 feefee57...........262............212...........180...........32 FeliciaLevy75......240............216...........190...........26 GillieBean.........304............296...........264...........32 HeatherO...........150............143...........130...........13 Hollie ............l54............154...........125...........29 janesays ..........244............244...........225...........19 Jeni85.............182............182...........160...........22 Jillbeme...........235............203.5.........185...........18.5 Josie74............260............255...........215...........40 klmsilva...........216............212...........190...........26 legster............183............183...........160...........23 linksmom...........251............236...........200...........36 Liquidbluegal......225............214.6.........199...........15.6 Liz_hager..........161............158...........130...........28 Long2BThin.........253............225...........215...........10 lotzasunshine......292............281...........250...........31 Luu2008............230............199.5.........153...........46.5 Lunabeane..........244............197...........187...........10.0 Mamanmidwife.......295............276...........260...........16 Melissa Aguirre ...266............233...........160...........73 Melody2006.........223............223...........173...........50 MiniPearl#2........???............???...........???...........?? Minxz..............299............287...........270...........17 neefam.............238............189...........158...........31 newby23............242............242...........212...........30 odizzzydori........242............242...........199...........43 paige65............252............238...........220...........18 rainer.............236............226...........210...........16 Redtulips3.........180............175...........160...........15 reif78.............294............195...........140...........40 RichardCranium.....338............276...........200...........76 soontobehottie.....201............186...........165...........21 srknepler..........285............249.2.........255..........(5.7) squale.............353............353...........325...........28 SueAZ..............198............193...........150...........43 Sunshine2..........177............167...........160...........07 Suzzzie............305............305...........285...........20 stevegoad..........370............341...........267...........74 Terilynn112........240............227...........199...........41 Truediva...........299............285...........235...........50 thininside28.......255............255...........215...........40 Turler.............219............211...........194...........17 youcandoit!........196............185...........165...........20

Folks...I was looking at pictures from my niece's birthday this weekend and I came across a picture of me...no head, a little grainy...but it was me. And it TOOK my breath away. I have to be honest. I don't see myself like this at all. Generally, all I can see are the negatives...and while I am not yet a "thin" woman (still obese....8 lbs to go to overweight!!!!), I am just absolutely blown away that that normal looking person in the second picture is ME...MEEEEEEE!!!! Every time I look at this, which has been quite often tonight (narcissist) my eyes fill up with tears. I am just so overwhelmed with this change in my body...and my spirit and my self esteem etc.... Thank you so very much for your support through this...I quite literally would not be as successful without your support. I struggled for a few months, but am back on board (have lost the majority of the 15 I packed on while recuperating from a different surgery in July!!!) As an FYI...I am 1 year 4months post op... The first picture was taken in April 07...3 months before my surgery! THAT NORMAL LOOKING WOMAN IS ME!!!!!! Holy crap! Rain

Name_________StartWeight___CurrentWeight______Goal________ToGo ********************************************* * agreatknead........204............194...........180...........14 areellady..........189............189...........159...........30 BIGB...............342............342...........300...........42 BellaPerdente......253............225...........200...........25 Boos02.............258............226...........200...........26 Brandy.............221............211...........191...........20 BrownBear..........240............235...........200...........35 Cadets71.........223.4..........223.4...........189.........34.4 Claudine...........250............231...........225...........6 Bunkey1965.........194............177...........170............7 CubsGirl17.........172............161...........150...........11 Cutiew/booty.......251............237...........220...........17 cQQlgirl...........195............191...........175...........16 crzytchr...........276............269...........246...........23 Donna113...........199............193.5.........160...........33.5 Ekat...............527............172...........152...........19 feefee57...........262............212...........180...........32 FeliciaLevy75......240............222...........190...........32 GillieBean.........304............296...........264...........32 HeatherO...........150............143...........130...........13 Hollie ............l54............154...........125...........29 Jeni85.............182............182...........160...........22 Jillbeme...........235..........207.5...........185.........22.5 Josie74............260............255...........215...........40 klmsilva...........216............212...........190...........26 legster............183............183...........160...........23 linksmom...........251............236...........200...........36 Liquidbluegal......225..........220.4...........199.........21.4 Liz_hager..........161............158...........130...........28 Long2BThin.........253............229...........215...........14 lotzasunshine......292............283.5.........250.........33.5 Luu2008............230..........199.5...........153.........46.5 Lunabeane..........244...........197............187.........10.0 Mamanmidwife.......295............282...........260...........22 Melissa Aguirre ...266............233...........160....... 73 Melody2006.........223............223...........173...........50 MiniPearl#2........???............???...........???...........?? Minxz..............299............287...........270...........17 neefam.............238............189...........158...........31 odizzzydori........242............242...........199...........43 paige65............252............242...........220...........22 rainer.............236............231...........210...........21 reif78.............294............195...........140...........40 RichardCranium.....338............276...........200...........76 soontobehottie.....201............191...........165...........26 srknepler..........285............253.7...........255.........-1.3 squale.............353............353...........325...........28 Sunshine2..........177............167...........160...........07 Suzzzie............305............305...........285...........20 stevegoad..........370............341...........267...........74 Terilynn112........240............227...........199...........41 Truediva...........299............285...........235...........50 thininside28.......255............255...........215...........40 Turler.............219............217...........194...........23 youcandoit!........196............189...........165...........24 Updating and changing my goal...It was unrealistic... so, hoping this is more realistic. Good work, everyone! Rainer

Name...............Starting................ Current.......Goal..............To Go agreatknead............237......................205...........180..... . .... .........25 areellady................189.......................189...........159… ................30 BIGB.....................342.......................342...........300 …................42 BellaPerdente........287.......................251...........200...... . .............51 Boos02..................258.......................226...........200…. ...............26 Brandy...................221.......................221...........191.. .. ................30 BrownBear............240.......................240...........200..... ...............40 Claudine................250.......................250...........225. ...................25 Bunkey1965..........194.......................190...........170....... .............20 Dionna113.............199.......................199...........160... ….............39 FeliciaLevy75 .......240.......................237...........190.................. .47 GillieBean.............304.......................304............264. ..................40 Hollie ....................l54.......................154............125..... . ............29 Jeni 85...................182.......................182............160.... .. ............22 Josie74...................260.......................260.............21 5. ...............45 klmsilva...................216......................216.............19 0. ...............26 legster....................183......................183..............1 60 ...............23 linksmom.................251......................251..............200 ... ............51 Liquidbluegal............225......................225..............199 ... ............26 Liz_hager..................161.....................161..............13 0... ............31 lotzasunshine............292.....................292..............250. . .............42 Luu2008...................230.....................203..............153 ... ............50 Mamanmidwife..........295.....................295..............260.... .... .......35 MELISSA AGUIRRE..266....................233..............160................73 Melody2006..............223.....................223..............173.. ... ..........50 odizzzydori...............242.....................242..............199 ... ............43 paige65.....................252.....................252..............2 08.. .............44 rainer........................236.......................233........... ..199. .............34 soontobehottie...........201.....................201..............165. . ............36 srknepler...................285.....................285..............2 55.. ............30 squale.......................353......................353............. 325...............28 Sunshine2................177.....................176..............160 ...............16 stevegoad..................370....................341.............. 267...............74 Terilynn112................240....................240..............199 ................41 Truediva.....................299....................285............... 235..............50 thininside28...............255....................255...............21 5.............. 40 reif78..............294...........195........40..........40

Re: Last of 2008 Weight Loss Challenge <hr style="color: rgb(217, 217, 217); background-color: rgb(217, 217, 217);" size="1"> Doing this for my husband---squale Name...............Starting................ Current.......Goal..............To Go agreatknead.......237......................205...........180.......... .........25 areellady...............189.......................189............159.. ................30 BIGB......................342.......................342............300 .................42 BellaPerdente.........287.......................251............200.... .............51 Boos02..................258.......................226............200.. ...............26 BrownBear.............240.......................240............200.... .............40 Claudine................250.......................250.............225. .................25 Bunkey1965...........194.......................192.............170.... .............22 Dionna113.............199.......................199.............160... ..............39 FeliciaLevy75 ........240.......................240.............190................5 0 GillieBean..............304.......................304.............264. ...............40 Hollie ...................154.......................154.............125...... ..........29 Jeni 85..................182.......................182.............160..... ............22 Josie74.................260.......................260.............215. ...............45 klmsilva.................216......................216.............190. ...............26 legster..................183......................183..............160 ...............23 linksmom..............251......................251..............200... ............51 Liquidbluegal.........225......................225..............199... ............26 Liz_hager..............161.....................161..............130... ............31 lotzasunshine.........292.......................292..............250.. ..............42 Luu2008................230.....................203..............153... ............50 Mamanmidwife......295.....................295..............260........ ........35 MELISSA AGUIRRE..266....................233..............160................73 Melody2006...........223.....................223..............173..... ...........50 odizzzydori............242.....................242..............199... ............43 paige65.................252.....................252..............208.. .............44 rainer..................236.......................236.............199. ................37 srknepler...............285.....................285..............255.. .............30 squale..................353......................353.............325..................28 Sunshine2.............177.....................177..............160.... ...........17 stevegoad..............370................341.............. 267.................74 Truediva...........299................285...........235............50

Name...............Starting................ Current.......Goal..............To Go agreatknead.......237......................205...........180.......... .........25 areellady...............189.......................189............159.. ................30 BIGB......................342.......................342............300 .................42 BellaPerdente.........287.......................251............200.... .............51 Boos02..................258.......................226............200.. ...............26 BrownBear.............240.......................240............200.... .............40 Claudine................250.......................250.............225. .................25 Bunkey1965...........194.......................192.............170.... .............22 Dionna113.............199.......................199.............160... ..............39 FeliciaLevy75 ........240.......................240.............190................5 0 GillieBean..............304.......................304.............264. ...............40 Hollie ...................154.......................154.............125...... ..........29 Jeni 85..................182.......................182.............160..... ............22 Josie74.................260.......................260.............215. ...............45 klmsilva.................216......................216.............190. ...............26 legster..................183......................183..............160 ...............23 linksmom..............251......................251..............200... ............51 Liquidbluegal.........225......................225..............199... ............26 Liz_hager..............161.....................161..............130... ............31 lotzasunshine.........292.......................292..............250.. ..............42 Luu2008................230.....................203..............153... ............50 Mamanmidwife......295.....................295..............260........ ........35 MELISSA AGUIRRE..266....................233..............160................73 Melody2006...........223.....................223..............173..... ...........50 odizzzydori............242.....................242..............199... ............43 paige65.................252.....................252..............208.. .............44 rainer..................236.......................236.............199.................37 srknepler...............285.....................285..............255.. .............30 Sunshine2.............177.....................177..............160.... ...........17 stevegoad..............370................341.............. 267.................74 Truediva...........299................285...........235............50

I went to my bariatric surgeon today to get a slight adjustment to my band and we were talking about the positives losing so much weight has had on my life. I was speaking about how thrilled I am that my girls are watching a healthier mom who gets up and moves and takes walks and jumps on the trampoline etc..instead of sitting like a sloth in my chair like I used to. While I was on my tirade, he stopped me to say(something like) this: "Yes, it is great that your kids have a better role model, but the best part is that YOU are having fun. After a life of being trapped and virtually unable to have fun because of your weight, you are having fun...and while the benefits are good for your kids, you're the best part of losing the weight." HOLY SMOKES...He was right. I forgot about me. I, for one, feel infinitely better and am thrilled to be doing this for myself...And I did need to be reminded of that....As a mom, I think I make the mistake of putting my children before me at all times...But I have to remember that one day they will move out and I will be left with myself...so it is imperative that I remember that my weight loss is for me. I have to love myself enough to accept that I am important enough to be the reason. Just a thought.

Hi all, Can I share a few new pictures? I am really struggling...was too tight and got a slight unfill and then had surgery....so I've gained just about 10 lbs in a little over a month. now, I do have ToM, but it's still not good. I figure if I put these pics out there, it may motivate me to put down the freaking ice cream... (What's with me and ice cream???) These are from a friend's wedding last weekend. I actually felt better about myself at her wedding than I did at my OWN wedding. I felt beautiful...I never ever ever feel beautiful...but I did last week. As always I'm going to put my awful start photo... Hey---sorry to write a book..feeling a little sad and out of control..must get back on track... Rain

I have three children who are under the age of 4 and I get kicked, hit, stepped on, etc constantly... I'm sure you are fine, but you should certainly call your dr. to make sure! Best of luck. Rain

unjury has a chicken Soup (not milk based) that is rather tasty... UNJURY Medical Quality Protein Supplement: High Protein Supplement Uses Whey Protein Isolate. Great tasting whey protein supplements! also, at GNC there are fruity Protein drinks...they didn't wow me, but they might be better for you...or they have these protein shots that also were too sweet for me, but they didn't have any milk in them. Best of luck. and congrats on getting your band. Also, I hate to say this, but I think if you are going to lose hair, it will happen with protein or not... I've always gotten my protein in and I have been losing hair for a while now...it's your body's reaction to "trauma" ie..surgery... At least that's what my surgeon told me! Rain

Since we moved (June 7th) and since I removed some of the Fluid out of my band (I was so tight I wasn't able to eat anything but liquids), I've been eating like a total pig and have gained 10lbs. I'm dealing with some post surgery (had TVT placed on Monday) issues, so I'm hoping it's not actually 10...but it's still there and I'm still stuffing my gob. It's weird, it's like I do GREAT all day and then, at night, I'm Jabba the Hut...Ugggh! So, I figured for 10lbs, I have to have to have to change my ticker...and seeing the BMI move back closer to morbid obesity, I am hopefully disgusted enough in myself to get back on it. I know you all don't need to know this, but I'm sure some people will read it and then I'll feel like I'll have to get back on it...I've got a lot of supporters to make proud! and myself Thanks for letting me spit it out- Rain

yes. this is what happens when i don't chew enough- it's the food sitting on top of the band check w/ your dr. rain

yes...I hate looking at my wedding photo..I looked and felt awful!!! I feel like I've been re-gifted my 20s...I just turned 32 last week and my 30s already kick my twenties butt!!! Rain

I had NO problem getting on and off the toilet or wiping myself. I was a 28/30-- hope this is not a problem for you either! Rain

go to a proper bra fitting store. You'll find one in the yellow book... My obgyn was adamant that I get a proper bra fit...and I'm not very large chested. He just felt that my breasts deserve proper support or they will sag and be in pain. However, I nursed my twins until they were 20months (after my surgery)...and my breasts are so not even nearly attractive in the least. Rain

Hello all, I was just in the hospital overnight after having a sling placed under my urethra to help support it. This was my first time in a hospital as a more average sized person....I thought I would share the experience with you. Well, upon arrival i was given a gown. An extra large gown...It embarrassed me and made me feel as though everything I have worked for was for naught....But then i put it on and it was so enormous I could slip it off of me without untying the neck tie. It slid right down my shoulders. I HATED wearing it...It made me feel so similar to when I was MO...It, of course, had a different pattern than the rest of the gowns...so I just felt awful..Additionally, it was so large it was uncomfortable because the extra material bunched up...and I was anxious about my boobs showing. Other than that, I can honestly say that this was my best visit to a hospital. When they moved me from the OR bed to the stretcher, I didn't worry that they would drop me. They also didn't have to call in extra people to help them. The person pushing the stretcher didn't look as though she was going to pass out while pushing me. I felt more comfortable in the bed. The support hose they made me wear fit and were comfortable (hot as hell, but comfortable). And the list goes on and on. Whereas I once would have been concerned about whether I would be hungry and want more food, I barely ate anything and was totally fine with it. It wasn't a travesty that the food was gross, I didn't really care---I was more than content to read my book. That, as far as i'm concerned, is a huge HUGE HUGE difference for me! Additionally, I felt almost normal sized as I sat in that bed...I didn't feel ashamed of myself as I have always felt in the past. I wasn't mortified when people saw me naked. (However, I must point out, that I almost look worse naked now than I did 116 lbs ago!!!---lots of ewwey skin on my tummy!) I never heard, wow, you're a big woman...I just heard that I was tall...and to be honest, i am very tall...so I always hear that. But tall is certainly easier to swallow than BIG... It's funny, I still really perceive myself as an MO woman. I don't think of myself as more average sized...I tend to think that i never will.... but I definitely noticed a difference this time I was in the hospital...I'm not sure if it is a difference in myself or a difference in how I was treated, or both...but I loved it and it is only one more in a long laundry list of why I love having made the choice to be banded. Oh well...off to take some percocet and fall asleep...Just thought I would share. Rain

If I use your analogy, I've lost all three of my children (42lbs, 36 and 36)--- We were walking this weekend and my 4 year old wanted to be picked up...I didn't even make it .5 mile....too heavy and hard and I was SWEATING!!! When I'm at goal, I'll have lost the dog as well! Rain

seems like an urban legend.... I hope it is...it's terrible rain

oh dear...I would take your drs advice...if they aren't overly concerned, then I would try not to be as well.. However...I thought you sked if anyone had ever pooped a port stitch and I was laughing at you thinking that you could poop a stitch... sorry to have laughed at you!!! rain

Canned poo, I've not had an immediate issue, but I just had an unfill after realizing I was too tight for my comfort level after three months. My dr. was nothing but supportive and kind. Your dr. should be nothing but supportive and kind as well...if he's not, then you might want to find another surgeon to work with. I'm sure, in conneticut, much like NJ, there are plenty of drs. to choose from. Best of luck. Lorraine