I'm just wondering when was the first time you became aware of being fat.

I think we all can remember a moment when you realized that your size was a problem or that you were different from normal weight people.

For me, I remember being about 8 and having a teacher tell me that I shouldn't have another piece of cake. I later overheard her talking to a mom who volunteered at our class parties. She told the mom to keep an eye on me because I eat too much and she felt it was her duty to make me lose weight. I was shocked because until that moment, being fat hadn't occurred to me. I just really liked cake.

I began my journey at 42, HW 275 CW 252. Surgery date: 3/31/16. I'm just thinking a lot about food issues and my beliefs about my weight. Hoping to get a handle on things before surgery.

I do not think I ever had a moment when I thought I was fat. Growing up I was always outside playing, running around, bike riding, and just being a kid. I think it was after I hit the teen years and got into high school, I started with the weight. I was a sophomore in high school and I was wearing a pair of jeans (that I guess were a little tight) and someone told me I had a camel toe. THAT made me self conscience for the rest of the day. Kids are horrible these days. DOWN right horrible. I started with the baggy t-shirts and loose fitting jeans from then on. It wasn't until after I had my kids that I got to my highest.. 290. THEN I was in denial. Making pants fit that I knew I shouldn't be wearing, huffing and puffing just by doing a simple thing as walking around.

I made the change in 2014 but sadly, I am not doing well with it and I feel like the fat failure. BLAH!

My first comment about my weight was at 7yrs old. A elderly man told me that I better stop drinking milk if i wanted to be as slim as my sister. My weight has fluctuated most of my life. The message that high weight is not acceptable is constant. We live in a judgmental world. Now that I'm at a healthy weight, I find that some people will still find derogatory things to say..... It speaks volume's about them and nothing about you.