Scared/Nervous/Anxious/and Obese
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Hello,
I've spent the last few days reading numerous posts and thought I'd sign up today and introduce myself. I have been riding the fence regarding the lapband procedure for some time now. My sister was banded 3 years ago and is down to her goal weight and looks fantastic....but can't hold down hardly anything she eats. She says that she has just accepted that as part of the new her. (she vomits after eating ANYTHING)
Six years ago I weighed 130 lbs and thought I was overweight, considering my normal weight for years was around 107 to 110. I am 5'2" and today weigh 210 and climbing. ( i am extremely small boned and have a petite buld, so the weight really HURTS my back, legs and hips) I have been batteling major depression for the last 5 to 6 years and the weight just keeps going up. I have no energy. I now have to sleep with a CPAP machine due to sleep apnea. (real sexy btw) I have high blood pressure. Heart disease and diabetes run in my family. I also am a heavy smoker. I know I will die early unless I make a serious change.
For years I "wanted" to "want" to...if that makes sense. I knew i needed to....but couldnt get to the point where I wanted to make a major committment to anything. Then, last year my husband asked for a divorce. He couldnt live with my depression any longer and was not physically attracted to me anymore. As much as it hurt, I completely understood. My self esteem went from bad to worse.
In Oct. of 06 I attended the mandatory orientation required by the surgeon for the lapband. I did this for my husband, more than myself. I kept coming up with various reasons why I shouldnt or couldnt do it. That is as far as I ever went until today.
I spent the better part of today looking at the before and after pictures on this forum. Wow...what an inspiration. I could honestly see in those pics so much more than weight loss...I saw hope and so much confidence in those who are near or at their goal.
I made an appointment for my psych evaluation for August 6th. The next thing will be to get my medical records for the past 5 years. I am concerned because my PCP has already told me he wouldnt recommend it for anyone. (i need a new doc I guess)
I still have a few major concerns but am determind to follow this through. My biggest fear is the amount of saggy skin that will most likely be left in my tummy. A Tummy tuck probably wont be an option for me since my insurance won't cover it. And...just watching my sister run to the bathroom after every meal bothers me. But this site has shown me that everyone has different experiences and that is probably the exception rather than the rule.
Anyway....I didnt mean to write a book....just wanted to introduce myself and hope to gain lots of support from this group. I'm 45 years old...have 4 children and 4 grandchildren. I need to get healthy for many reasons.
Jacki