So i have been going through old post and blogs reading where i was back then and some of the things i was going through. Some of which im STILL going through.... Like this one. Not so much the Botox thing (although i would if i were a rich woman) but other stuff.... Like, why am i still looking for validation in my life...? Why when people say... your pretty, your a beautiful person (inside and out), you thin, in great shape... Why do i not see that... and still seek others approval only to not believe them.... So i thought i would share this old Blog post from 2012 (which by the way, seems like a life time ago):

july 2, 2012 by scale?.... I was completely caught off guard by that question.

So i asked my self..... Why am i so consumed by the number on the scale (aka the devil)? i really don't know why. I got the band to stop the cycle of Heart attacks and diabetes in my family and i wanted to be able to run and play with my grand kids. I also wanted to stop having to shop at Lane Bryant.... I wanted to feel good and look good, i wanted to be pretty again... You would think being a size 6 and 143ish pounds would be good... Enough. Why is it not? My first goal was to be a size 10, got that. Then i said... well if i could only be a size 8 then i will be happy, got that.... then it was... i hate this stomach roll... boy if i could just get that taken off.... i would be happy and not need another thing, got the Tummy Tuck.

Now it's my face.... What...? Yes my face, now that i lost the weight, i can see all the lines and wrinkles that the "fat" face hid.... So at dinner the other night... i brought Botox..... my husband of coarse rolled his eyes.... my son the RN went thru all the horror stories about botched Botox..... But none set in as much as my 6 year old Grandson when he said.....
Nana... i think your beautiful just the way you are....(insert tears)... If a 6 year old can see it... Then why can't I??

So that's why i ask..... When is Enough... Enough?

Well said. I'm shocked at my turkey wattle on my neck. I need to remember what my face looked like when I was 302 pounds.