My starting weight, that was taken in Nov. was 309. I was approved in January, when my weight was 313.

You would think that getting to 293 (its like 15.5) wouldnt be a huge deal....thats practically Water weight.

But it is.

Ive lost this same 15-20 every few months for the last two years.

Why is it so hard to do it now, after Ive been approved for surgery?

Im more active than Ive been, and am learning to eat right, but it won't budge. In fact, it went up, but thats probably due to TOM.

I know itll come off...Im just bewildered and depressed about it today.

That just SUCKS! I remember thinking there was NO way I could do what I needed to do. I remember how difficult it always was to lose when I had a special event like a wedding or something. That is ALWAYS when I would gain weight. Do you have a liquid pre-op diet? I guarantee you will lose on that. I lost 12 pounds in one week (starting it I was 308). Mine was purely liquid - shakes, broth and decaffeinated unsweet drinks only. Is your insurance requiring the loss or your doctor?

I have to lose the 15 pounds before they will start the 4 week pre-op diet. 2 weeks modified, 2 weeks liquid. I know I would totally lose on that...just have to lose this first.

Maybe its psychological, like how it is for a wedding, or big even like you said. I keep trying to just breathe, let it go. I even got rid of my scale (its at a relatives) so i would only be weighed by my doctor.

Still stressing. Letting it go is so much harder than I thought.