I really disappoint myself on how much I let myself go! I can't stand to look at my reflection in the mirror not take pictures. Surgery can't come quick enough.

I feel you. I felt the same way, these 2 weeks with the whole pre op diet has me feeling different. Can't wait for it. You'll be ok, the day will come

I know how you feel. I avoid mirrors as often as I can. I refuse pictures. When I spoke to the surgeon and we talked about doing this for my physical health I also told him how much this impacts my mental health. I have no self confidence. I have no self respect. As much as I try to love me for who and how I am I just have never been able to.

You all sound like I did a few months ago. I want to cry remembering how awful I felt, how draining the self torture was. I was constantly thinking about the weight and hating myself for letting myself get so big. 24/7 I was thinking about how others saw me and how unattractive I was.

I had surgery July 11 and have done amazing. I wish I could hug that me from before surgery and all of you. It will get better, I promise. Do the work and you will be free from the shackles you are feeling. You'll be proud of yourself for doing it and you will feel happy & free.

Until then, try to be kind to yourself. You are already beautiful and amazing.

Edited August 24, 201511 yr by Remix

Ugh I know what you mean. I hate to look in the mirror. I totally avoid social outings because I think everyone is looking at me thinking how fat I have gotten.