Sometimes I think to myself what if this isn't going to work for me. Granted I'm glad to have lost 50 lbs in 3 months, what if that's it? I keep hovering between 290 and 292. Now I know what your gonna say, "You're doing fine, stick to the program, stalls happen, etc, but I can't help but feeling like I'm not going to lose all the weight.

I find myself obsessed with others success stories, and dreaming that one day I'll have a success story of my own. I spend 90% of my day looking at before and after pictures wondering if I'm ever gonna be as small as the rest of you veterans. To be able to enjoy shopping, finally being noticed by the opposite sex, and not being treated like I'm not good enough.

I couldn't wait to get out of the 300s, but even being 292, I'm still way too close to it. Does anyone else have or had these fears during this journey?

Thanks @@proudgrammy and right back at you! You're a treasure!

_{I was the same way 6 months up to my lap band surgery in 2008. i was OBSESSED with looking at pictures, hearing the positive (and even sometimes reading the negative) stories, determined to be that person. I too worried about failure, about success, about everything. I think its normal.}

I should also add that now that I'm seeking a revision I'm going through a Renaissance period once again. Last year I started journey #2 down the path of switching from a band to the RNY which ended in my first rejection. I'm going for round two. Yahoo! I'm up for an adventure!