My band just had her three year birthday. I had her fixed for the second time in Oct. 2014. She is restricted, but man my willpower sux. I hit that three mark, stepped on the scale 10 pounds less than the birth of my band. Up until the the secound corrective surgery I had done great with my diet. I never drank pop, I limited myself to the amount of sugar I had daily. Then suddenly I felt like a failure at this. I still fill like a failure. To the point that now I am being the failure. The band is finally working correctly and I have given up after three years of trying hard to loose it with NO progress (keep in mind during the three years I have had a total of four months being in the sweet spot due to repeated band failure). I am so grateful for the surgeon to repair the band twice at no cost to me. Now, here I am screwing up and have no willpower left. I want it, but I don't "see" it happening for me at this point.

Talk to the doctor about a support group or see if your coverage includes mental health. No..you're not crazy but most of us have an unhealthy relationship with food and a therapist who specializes in bariatric issues can be a life saver. I know because I see one. She helps me to work out issues without turning to food and she helps me to look at the root causes of my obesity so I can avoid it again.

It's not the first time I've lost alot of weight just to put it back on and while the band works better than anything else I've ever tried, I know already that I can eat around it if I choose. High calorie/sugar/fat foods go down real easy. I think we all know that and how hard this journey can be even when so many think we've taken 'the easy way out'.

Do not drink soda, it's dangerous and can hurt you. It will move your band and can erode your stomach, learn from me!! Do not drink carbonation!

You are not a failure! You just need to find alternate ways to deal with your emotional ups and downs by trying to soothe them with stuff like soda. I was a big soda drinker too (coke zero) but I had to give it up. It's like alcohol to an alcoholic. It's all or nothing. If I go back to it I know it's a just a slippery slope to weight gain.

Good luck!