Tomorrow @10...this is just driving me crazy. I hate waiting. I hate not knowing if they'll get me in before the end of December. For some reason I'm feeling depressed more. I should be happier I'm almost there. I'm not afraid of the surgery. I guess it's just that we're struggling right now with me out of work and I've been tracking all my food but I'm not seeing any difference. I'm usually under 1200 cal. I just want results it's been a rough week,drama, every time I turn around. My dogs health is going downhill fast. I've been chasing him around with a mop and his leash. The insurance company took out a large pymt 3 days early and bounced my checking acct. Just keeping decent food on the table is a struggle. I had a great pcp and she left the practice and the new doctor is an idiot. I'm in constant pain with my back and she isn't listening to me. It's the anniversary of my mother's death and my son's birthday at the same time. I'm sorry I didn't mean this to be a rant our I would have put it in that category. I just don't know how to get out of this funk.

I'm sorry y'all. I'm just having a pity party.

There are many unknowns when dealing with Weight Loss Surgery process. And these unknowns can cause anxiety. In my case, my insurance company refused to pay for the Nutritionist appointments. My insurance required as a prerequisite that I undergo 6 months of medically supervised diet and exercise program but the insurance claimed they didn't have to pay for it. I put blinders on and went forward. In the end the insurance covered every other visit I made to the nutritionist. I found no logic in their approach.

If you are trying to loss weight prior to surgery, I will offer one word of advise. After surgery you will need to cut out all caffeine and carbonated beverages. I had a 6 Diet Coke a day habit before surgery. I went cold turkey when I began the medically supervised weight loss program. I lost 20 pounds on that change alone. Also when I went cold turkey I experienced a very severe withdrawal syndrome that lasted a week - major headaches. The time to go through withdrawal is now, not when you enter the hospital for surgery.

Oh, I just thought of another word of advise. Make sure you get your daily walking exercise in. It makes the recovery process go much smoother.

I am so sorry sweetie, and you can vent anytime you want!

Thanks, I'm better now. I'm just impatient. Got thru (it was all of 5 minutes) one month from now will be my last appointment then on to my surgery date!

I haven't drank sodas(at least regularly) in a year. I don't drink milk either tho I can tolerate cheese and yogurt