Well my surgery date has arrived faster then I ever thought possible. This will be the 2nd date as my 1st was postponed by 3 months and I never thought the day would EVER get here .... and now I am quietly freaking out! It seems so real now. And kind of scary. And almost a sadness that I will never eat normal again. Well, normal for the plus sized me as I am now which really is not "normal". I find I am not so much concerned about the actual procedure as I am about what follows. I know that it will be worth it. The health benefits and the energy levels .... even the slimmed down woman I long to be, in cute clothes and able to actually cross my legs .... but I am still really nervous and apprehensive. Monday my co-workers are throwing me a little celebration and I have tons of support but I somehow feel crazy with all the OMG thoughts rattling around my head .... and then I feel shamed because I worked hard to get this thru the insurance and get all my tests and studies completed. I want this, but this is kinda scary. Ok, stopping whining now ...

First I would like to say congrats on your choice to be healthy, you got this, everyday will be a new adventure for you the unknown can be scary but trust me when I say this the new you is so worth it, I had no fear of the surgery and was like you afraid of the what after, but i had the best sleep ever as well as while I was recovery i was not in that much pain and i was burning the wheels off of my iv pole as I walk around the room. The rewards are so worth it, I was taking off all of my diabetic medications upon my release from the hospital and my blood pressure medications, I was even taken off of my high cholesterol medication within two weeks. I have been off all meds within two weeks of having my surgery on May 19 and I have more energy and feel great. I will keep a spot on the losers bench . keep us posted my friend and its great that you have supportive friends.

That's great! My surgery is August 14th!

Congratulations! How cool that your coworkers are so supportive and throwing you a celebration. I hear you about the OMG thoughts though and I don't even have a surgery date yet. I am sure as it gets closer, I'll do some more panicking! I'll be watching your progress since I won't be too far behind you. Good luck with everything!