Oh my gosh I cant for the life of me figure out what I did on the 19th!!! Why am I such a weak person to have to have something put in my body THAT I CANT TAKE OUT!!! I am freaking out hourly crying and bawling and I cant control it. I know the lack of sleep does not help but COME ON!!! Surgery went fine and I really had no pain that was higher than an 8 on the pain scale but it wasnt even my stomach that hurt it was my back!!! I was nauseated ALOT and several times spit out my spit in order to try to control the feeling. My oxygen levels went really low when I went for walks so I had to stay the night. Which was fine with me. The gas pain is bad at times and just when I think it has gone away....here it comes again. I AM AN EMOTIONAL WRECK....I know what everyone is going to say....Hang in there it gets better...but right now I dont see that. I still think this thing inside me is going to end up killing me somehow and I am just to scared to relax enough to get any rest. BUT I have been walking walking walking and hubby pats on my back, that seems to really help with getting some gas out..kinda like burping a baby!! Anyways, thats my emotional roller coaster..first it is the roller coaster of waiting to have it done and then comes this one...OH BROTHER!! Am I going to make it??????:cry :cry :cry I know I will but I sure hope this feeling goes away FAST!!! Deanna... banded 19th of April, just got home Friday the 20th at 1:00pm Mountain time.

I am so glad you are doing so good!!! Good Job!! TOAST??? OH MY I dream of the toast...not really the toast just the butter melting off the sides...mmmmmmmmmmmmm GREAT...now this tea is just not going to cut it!!! Deanna

I have to admit that I put a little homemade jam on the last bite of the toast. mmmmmmmmmm is right!

Just keep swimming, swimming. Just keep swimming! - Dori