Tomorrow is endoscopy..... May 19 surgery..... Tomorrow starts all liquid .... Cheated a bit this week on pre-op..... Having a MAJOR battle in my head .... Should I do this or not???? I've lost the weight twice on my own.... Could not keep all of it off.... Have ALL the co-morbities..... Ughhhhh..... I think I'm in denial.....and I'm scared to death..... I KNOW.... I should do this..... But the head game is awful!!! Somebody help!!!

You have made a *wise* decision to get live a long and healthy long life. The diet will make it possible for the surgeon to minimize any issues during surgery. I know you will be able to do this before and after the surgery.

I wish I were as far along as you are and could get it done sooner! Best wishes.

Honestly I struggled with the decision too. If you are anything like me, you have probably had a life time of food indulgences. Really I am only 10 days out of surgery now and it is so nice not to feel hungry and to be content in the decision I made. People are eating all sorts of things around me and there just isn't the same connection with hunger or cravings. I have already started to feel free...trust yourself, trust your medical professionals, get a circle of support and get on with having fun and living. Just think a year from now you will not be thinking about what is the next diet you should go on because you will be where you want to be....good luck

I felt the same way. I was scared something would go wrong.. or that they would do the surgery and find something terrible. Pretty much everything you could worry about, I did. I constantly wondered if it was the right decision.. I felt ashamed that it had even come to the point where this was a decision I had to make.

I'd been saying I'd lose the weight since I'd gained it all 6 years ago.. it was something I thought about every day and it made me terribly unhappy. I know how to lose weight. I can be successful short term, but nothing sticks.. As much as I wanted to be a healthy weight and regain my self-confidence, I always fell back into bad habits and gained everything I'd lost back and more. I was tired of that happening.

So as scared as I was, I decided to go through with my surgery anyway. I'm a week out and don't regret my decision at all. It's been amazing so far.. Every day before my surgery, I used to focus on food. What would I eat next? Would I be "good" or give in to something I knew I shouldn't have? It was a constant struggle.. Now, food is just.. eh. I don't really have much interest in it. I'm starting to just now feel hungry again, but it's different. I feel like I could just take a couple bites and be satisfied. More than anything, I feel so hopeful and motivated.. I think this could really work! Better yet, I WANT it to work. So I'm going to do everything I can to be successful this time. The sleeve is definitely going to help. I didn't do all this for it not to.

Don't be afraid! You'll be a happier, healthier you.. and that's totally worth it.

Thank you guys SO much for those words.... It made me cry..... It's so nice to hear from people who understand.... I'm SO sick of hearing myself..... I'm going to put one foot in front of the other and move forward.... And try to be a little less afraid each day till the 19 th!!!! Thank you again.....I'll report after endoscopy tomorrow!

I also was not 100% sure I wanted to do this even as I was on the table right before surg but I am glad I did. First you have to be sure you want to commit then think about the weight falling off.....believe me, it is a wonderful feeling 2 months out and 60lbs down, cloths hanging on me and no longer hungry and very motivated....I know I made the right decision. best of luck.

I start my liquid diet on Wed and I'm also getting the same thoughts hun, it's constantly on my mind. My date is the 28th and reading what you all have to say makes me feel better thank you, we are in the same boat my friend xo

You got this, congrats on your decision to vera healthy, you will be successful with this because you know what you tried in the past didn't dork now you will have a tool that's proven to work. Good luck I will be joining you on the 19 of this month we got this and good luck.

I had my endoscopy and they found some polyps but the surgeon thought it was nothing..up until today I had not been on this website. I am so so excited but also very nervous..the doc office submitted my package to the insurance company today..I am waiting on my official date of surgery.. good luck