I am so weird
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I approached the sleeve as the "last time" I am going to lose a bunch of weight. No regain. That meant I really thought about everything that didn't work in the past. One of the things I used to do was keep a fat wardrobe. I owned clothes that ranged from a size 16 to about 28W (around a 3X) to accommodate my slide up and down the scale. this time, I got rid of clothes as soon as they were too big. When I gained 5# last summer and my favorite fitted jeans were feeling a little tight i sucked it up, didn't buy new ones and did 5:2 to get rid of those 5 plus a few more. I find that this method of being really tough about clothing (ie stretch pants are a slippery slope back to 300# theory) has helped me alot since I don't track food. Clothing and the scale are my "accountability" tools. I can buy smaller clothes, or same but NOT bigger.
Anyway, for some odd and unconscious reason, I have been hanging on to oversize underwear. I didn't realize it at first. Then, when I realized it, I thought, oh, I will surely need these after plastic surgery as I was visualizing horrible pain and needing to wear the loosest of clothing. That was a crock, I could wear my regular size underwear right after my plastic surgery! So, I started throwing away my huge granny panties and I realized I had tucked some away in the back of the pajama drawer... etc. Just yesterday I found another two pair put away in a storage bin in my bedroom... tossed em. I am not sure... I hope it is the last of them.
I did not make this hoarding decision consciously and I find it very humorous but also interesting to reflect on WHY. I suspect that this little part of me holds doubt about maintenance and this is my physical expression of it. I think if I regain 160# finding fitting undies is the least of my problems so it is pretty weird.