WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying, and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.

WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying' date=' and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.[/quote']

Congrats!! I'm sure you will do fine! You made these first steps I don't think you'll fail! Good luck ????

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I think it is easy to let ones mind start thinking about the 'what its'... what if there are complications.. what if I regain weight ...but I have found that coming up with a 'what if' goal.. mine is 'what if I am not around to walk my daughter down the Ilse'. She is 5 now and I am going to do whatever it takes to be there... that is my focus

WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying' date=' and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.[/quote']

All of your thoughts are totally normal! I think we all have the fear of failure and just the general nervousness and excitement of taking the next step. I decided I might fail..but who measure my failure but me? I can't fail if I lose anything at all cause I have been stuck for years losing nothing.

WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying, and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.

Mine went fast. My insurance would only pay 4k, so not many hoops to jump through. You'll succeed. You can't help but succeed. I was worried about the same thing and I'm now down over 60 pounds. My surgery was April 1st.

WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying' date=' and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.[/quote']

I feel exactly like you. They submitted my paper work to insurance on Wednesday. I can't stand the waiting. I didn't even think of 250 until you said it. I weigh 350 now and I was 375 at my highest. I know the goal is to cut me in half but its hard to think of that as a reality. We need to believe cuz we can do this. We have made it this far. But I'm scared too.

Mine went fast. My insurance would only pay 4k' date=' so not many hoops to jump through. You'll succeed. You can't help but succeed. I was worried about the same thing and I'm now down over 60 pounds. My surgery was April 1st.[/quote']

Congrats that's awesome I'm so nervous to but I can't wait for my success stories also. Great job!

WOW. This whole process is moving so quickly for me because I am self-paying' date=' and I don't have to deal with insurance. I had my first appointment on May 30th, and I just completed all of the pre surgical requirements and tests. I am starting to get really anxious & excited! I want to schedule surgery!!!! I want a date!!! I know it will be soon....but I feel like a little kid on Christmas Eve. As excited as I am though, I am really scared of failure. What if I don't succeed? What if I can't do this!? I guess it's just hard for me to even picture myself losing weight because I've never done extraordinary on any diet in the past. I can't even imagine myself being below 250lbs. I honestly don't remember the last time I was less than 250lbs. I just really want to get things moving. I want to start my road to being a healthier and happier me.[/quote']

Don't worry- as long as you are persistent and do as your doctor says than everything will be ok! I had mine 11/6/12 and at 6mo the dr ran tests and my pouch is to big I'm having to go back to surgery to correct it- so u see, I'm NOT giving up & I am NOT going to fail!!! As long as you don't give up on yourself you'll be ok too! There's always a fix! Keep us posted!

I am self pay as well! In did my consult and hey scheduled the surgery for 2 weeks after. So surgery is this Wednesday!