Well, here I am, mixed emotions with regards to having surgery. I certainly don't enjoy the extra weight, sleep apnea, sore backs, high blood pressure, high cholesterol and low self esteem. However, just thinking about being operated on in such a permanent way is taking its toll on me. I can feel the anxiety building.

I'm mostly worried about complications, malabsorption issues after surgery or in the long term and dumping syndrome I hear so frequently about.

My emotions are in a bit of a "yo-yo" mode as I was giving my operation date a couple of days ago.

Can anyone relate to how I'm feeling, and how did you deal with it?

Yes! I'm the same. I hate the idea of messing with nature but at the same time I know should get this.

I think it's just that we are scared of success and failure, change and staying the same all at once. I'm scared of always feeling it, like never feeling like me again. I dread recovery. I've had several surgeries. I've recovered well...not sure why this is so freaky. I had a hernia repair, oral surgery, sinus surgery, a c section, and bilateral carpal tunnel releases. All successful, all good results, one equally life changing!

I'm scared I'll be a big burden to my husband, both if I do this, or if I didn't. I want the health that will come with losing weight.

Going through many emotions as well especially being on day 11 of the 2 week liquid diet. I've noticed since being on this liquid diet that society places such a huge emphasis on food....it's everywhere oncommercials' date=' radio, available when you're bored, sad, happy or celebrating...it's just everywhere. I am feeling no regrets about my decision....but I do wish I would have realized how hard it was going to be saying goodbye to mounds of delicious junk food.[/quote']

I totally understand what you are saying. I will have my surgery on March 5 so getting anxious not only about the surgery but the 2-week liquid diet. My whole family dynamic is about food...that's what we do when seeing each other. Meeting for lunch over the weekends is a normal occurrence. Birthdays, celebrations or just because its Tuesday is a reason to eat. I keep finding and eating things I know I will give up after surgery (ie: specialty at a particular restaurant) and packing it in...

Luckily, I am on the right path and journey now, so will change my way of thinking and consequently myself!

Well' date=' here I am, mixed emotions with regards to having surgery. I certainly don't enjoy the extra weight, sleep apnea, sore backs, high blood pressure, high cholesterol and low self esteem. However, just thinking about being operated on in such a permanent way is taking its toll on me. I can feel the anxiety building.

I'm mostly worried about complications, malabsorption issues after surgery or in the long term and dumping syndrome I hear so frequently about.

My emotions are in a bit of a "yo-yo" mode as I was giving my operation date a couple of days ago.

Can anyone relate to how I'm feeling, and how did you deal with it?[/quote']

Xanax, therapy, certain supportive family members, support (online here and hopefully nearby), and constant editing of thoughts and worries. My mother is a nurse and she told me that given my neuro condition that makes me handicapped w/O this surgery that either I don't and continue to fall apart and maybe die and not be there for my Fam or u do take a leap of faith and live. I have to choose faith over fear to keep going to my Surg date.

God bless!

Hi all. I'm post op 4 days. Just wanted to let you know I made it through.

Hi all. I'm post op 4 days. Just wanted to let you know I made it through.

Great!!! Congrats being on losers side ! Looking forward to joining u :-)