Ever since I had surgery (6 weeks ago) I have become the world's largest hypocrite! 8 weeks ago (before my pre-op diet) I was eating right along with the rest of my overweight household. I didn't look at or really care what anybody else in my house was eating, I was indulging just as much. Now, it's a totally different story. It's almost like I have food blinders on. I look around and see food everywhere, it's like I'm actually aware of the sheer amount of crap that lays around this house. chips, candy, Cookies, etc - you name it! I don't want to eat it, the thought of most of it is revolting, but I'm sitting here watching my husband, stepdaughters, and 2 roommates we have right now just stuff their faces. It makes my physically ill. I think it's partially because my husband promised he would go on a diet when I had surgery, but I've yet to see him even give it a small try.

I'm just wondering if this will feeling will go away. I constantly have to keep my mouth shut because I want to scream at people "DO YOU REALLY NEED THAT 3RD DONUT?" Has any body else dealt with this? I feel like I have absolutely no place in saying anything to anybody. I'm NOT any better than they are just because I decided to do something about my weight and unhealthy eating habits, but it just bothers me to no end. It's almost like I've been "shown the light" and I want to share it with everybody else around me, but no one else cares one bit. So I just sit here, day after day, internally rolling my eyes and making silent gagging noises as the feasting around me continues. God help me, I seriously think I'm going crazy!

Most of us didnt love ourselves before the surgery gave us the will to. I thought it would be harder to cook for my family than it is. I made gumbo yesterday and I wasnt even tempted, I ate my stir fry instead. Today we all had blackened catfish (cooked healthfully and low fat), and they ate it along with me. I think in many instances we are all eating healthier, but I still make them some of their faves.

Can I just say as a pre-op person I feel like a hypocrite because I get on here while I'm eating! I did the same thing when I quit smoking... I increased my smoking while I stayed on a quit smoking website. It's like I transition one addiction onto another! I'm taking the advice of another person on this site tho.... I'm about to start dieting pre-op (after my b-day on Tuesday)! Until then I will feel like a hypocrite while I'm eating when I'm surfing on here. As for the OP.... try to change your irritation into sadness for their addiction. I will always be a food addict just like I will always be a smoker- I'll just be a food addict that chooses not to indulge....lol...and that also chooses not to smoke! Lol