OK hold on, i know that you may find the topic title weird/odd, but i promise you am not a *****/freak.

but it is true, i kissed myself today, and i find this to be a NSV that is worth sharing.

First, before i go into the subject, let me tell you a little about myself.

1. I HATE MYSELF!
   
   
2. I HATE MYSELF!
   
   
3. I HATE MYSELF!
   
   
4. I HAVE ALWAYS HATED MYSELF!
   
   
5. DID I SAY, I HATE MYSELF?
   
   
6. IN CASE I FORGOT, I HATE MYSELF.
   

This has all changed today as i was washing the dishes. This past valentine, my husband has gave me a mirror as a gift, this mirror is heart shaped and my husband decided to glue it on the wall that i face when i am at the sink, when he glued it, he said and i quote: " this is for you to always remember how beautiful you have became and have always been". well, it was a sweet thing from him to gift and say BUT i have always ignored mirrors, because i have always seen a reflection of someone who i never thought i was, i acted different than what i see in the mirror, i act as if i am small but the mirror has always showed a big reflection which i hated!

Well to make this long story short. Today, as i was washing the dishes, i take take a look at the mirror and look back down BUT i looked back at myself right away because what i saw has pleased me!! I saw a beautiful 20 year old woman who is the exact reflection of my soul, i thought i looked beautiful, and i questioned myself: is this really me? I teared up and all of the sudden without paying attention to what i am doing, I kissed the mirror and stood up and smiled (but whats wrong with complimenting myself) UGH, i confess it felt weird but for the first time i love myself.

This made my day, and i sure could not leave it at that.

I walked swiftly to my husband in the living room and told him that he is a very lucky man to have me. HAHAHAHA he was weak. BUT i was very happy, and in a very good mood all of the sudden.

I am sure this has happened to someone else, kissing the mirror/liking what you see... it happens right?

I find it okay to compliment myself, because what i went through was not easy, what i gave away to be at this state of body was not easy, it is okay to like what i see even for a moment right?

Sorry for this long post, i thought i had to share, please give yourself credit, you deserve it.

Thank you for your comments, all i can say is that this surgery was worth it!

What a great story, thank you for sharing. I have not had a moment like that, but more of a gradual change. One thing I do understand without question is self loathing. I'm happy for you! (and your husband sounds like a keeper )

OK hold on' date=' i know that you may find the topic title weird/odd, but i promise you am not a *****/freak.

but it is true, i kissed myself today, and i find this to be a NSV that is worth sharing.

First, before i go into the subject, let me tell you a little about myself.

[*']I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HATE MYSELF!

[*]I HAVE ALWAYS HATED MYSELF!

[*]DID I SAY, I HATE MYSELF?

[*]IN CASE I FORGOT, I HATE MYSELF.

This has all changed today as i was washing the dishes. This past valentine, my husband has gave me a mirror as a gift, this mirror is heart shaped and my husband decided to glue it on the wall that i face when i am at the sink, when he glued it, he said and i quote: " this is for you to always remember how beautiful you have became and have always been". well, it was a sweet thing from him to gift and say BUT i have always ignored mirrors, because i have always seen a reflection of someone who i never thought i was, i acted different than what i see in the mirror, i act as if i am small but the mirror has always showed a big reflection which i hated!

Well to make this long story short. Today, as i was washing the dishes, i take take a look at the mirror and look back down BUT i looked back at myself right away because what i saw has pleased me!! I saw a beautiful 20 year old woman who is the exact reflection of my soul, i thought i looked beautiful, and i questioned myself: is this really me? I teared up and all of the sudden without paying attention to what i am doing, I kissed the mirror and stood up and smiled (but whats wrong with complimenting myself) UGH, i confess it felt weird but for the first time i love myself.

This made my day, and i sure could not leave it at that.

I walked swiftly to my husband in the living room and told him that he is a very lucky man to have me. HAHAHAHA he was weak. BUT i was very happy, and in a very good mood all of the sudden.

I am sure this has happened to someone else, kissing the mirror/liking what you see... it happens right?

I find it okay to compliment myself, because what i went through was not easy, what i gave away to be at this state of body was not easy, it is okay to like what i see even for a moment right?

Sorry for this long post, i thought i had to share, please give yourself credit, you deserve it.

I LOVE THIS!!!!!!! I also hate mirrors and have as few as possible in my house and can only imagine what will happen the first time I let myself really look at myself in a few months.

Beautiful post and thanks for sharing. I too hope I will learn to look in the meeting and love myself.

So happy for you! I've long hated myself for various reasons, one of them from letting myself get so fat and unhealthy. I can't wait to get rid of that monkey on my back and be able to forgive myself and be proud of how I treat my body, not ashamed. Thank you for your beautiful post!!

I think that's the best post I have ever read in here!

Congratulations to you. What a huge NSV!

Awwww! I love this! Congratulations girly!!

As I read this I cried more and more. First if all you sound like a very lucky woman to have a husband so supportive and thoughtful. I have felt every word you said. I hate getting my hair cut because you are forced to look in the mirror for so long. I hope I see this through and all goes well so that I can have the feeling you describe. Thank you for posting and motivating.

thank you all for your sweet replies, am glad that i was able to motivate you through my post <3

My surgery is 18 days away. I am terrified. I keep re reading this post and I remember why I am doing this. Thank you again.