So, I'm 5 days away... & suddenly I have no desire to talk at all. I'm finding myself increasingly withdrawn & I can't stop being this way. In my head, I'm overwhelmed with check lists of things I should do, letters I should write, words I should say... but I am terrified almost. It's bizarre. I've waited so long for this. I'm not having doubts, bc I definitely feel like I need this tool. I'm just...idk...contemplative, I guess. ?? A lot about the actual surgery freaks me out: anesthesia, Foley Cath, subconsciously hearing OR sounds, the possibility of waking up with a mistake RNY instead, not waking up... The recovery doesn't worry me as much as being out of work/income. I've hobbled on a dislocated pelvis & subsequent healing back. I've borne two children with pregnancies that destroyed my body & almost killed me each time. I'm sure a little abdominal surgery/recovery is nothing I can't handle. But these head games...

I was having crazy thoughts too probably until they said we are ready and off to the OR I went. I honestly dont remember anything after that until I woke up in recovery! It is so worth it! I was sleeved 3/19/13 and am so happy I did it. Stay strong!!

I was having crazy thoughts too probably until they said we are ready and off to the OR I went. I honestly dont remember anything after that until I woke up in recovery! It is so worth it! I was sleeved 3/19/13 and am so happy I did it. Stay strong!!

Thank you for that. I'm much better today, but I know once we get in the car for the drive to the hospital, I'll be a wreck again. Lol I know it's worth it.

I didn't talk much at all in the days leading up to my surgery. I was withdrawn, I'm not sure that it mattered. I was getting my mind right.

I was sleeved on 3-20 and woke up with the catheter in and it was removed the next day. It is a strange feeling when they pull it out but it's not painful at all. I also started my period the day before my surgery which was a major PITA! I told the anesthesiologist that I get nauseous really easy and was given extra meds for that plus a nausea patch behind my ear. They gave me something to relax me prior to taking me into the OR and I honestly don't remember anything after that (saying goodbye to my husband, being transferred to the OR or sounds from the OR). I've had a number of surgeries and I've still been awake when they take you into the OR and start strapping you down (which is much more scary for some reason). I will be honest and say the first 3 days were much harder than I expected and I couldn't even get a sip down until the 4th day. (I actually had to spend an extra night in the hospital for this very reason). Each day has been getting easier. I did have an allergic reaction to the adhesive that was used during the surgery which has been uncomfortable. You'll do fine. It helps to try and be as prepared as possible and try not to compare your surgery/recovery to anyone else. It was frustrating when I was feeling so bad to read about others that felt no pain or could swallow anything without any issue.