tomorrow makes 1 month since surgery..

i've learned a ton about myself and my body in the process. i'm surprised with how good i feel, how i'm losing weight, the correlations i see between my daily activities and the scale, and the mental aspects.

how good i feel

i feel great. recovery wasn't nearly as bad as i thought it would be. i have no idea why/how i got lucky, but things were pretty easy. i know it's not always the case, but i had surgery on a wednesday and went back to work the following monday. i was a little tired and run down, but altogether it was smooth sailing.

i've been working out again, but not to the level i want. saturday i am cleared to begin weights and jiu jitsu again, and i can't wait to get back to it. it will be difficult to get back in the swing of things, but i am ready for it. previously i was training jiu jitsu 4 days / week and lifting 2 days / week. i'm ready to get back but realize i can't come out of the gate overdoing it.

weight loss

i'm down 30. i hit my stall, took a break from the scale, and when i noticed my pants fitting better i stepped back on. i hope to get 3-4lb/week until goal, setting me up for an anticipated goal date of sometime in september. i know i'll get there, maybe even faster when i'm back on the mat for those crazy intense jiu jitsu sessions. life is good.

correlations

it's amazing how the scale fluctuates between good days and bad days. yes, i said it - bad days. some days i don't do well on the food. i eat too little or eat something that's not on my plan. and you know what? it's ok. i'm very good at logging food, and the devil is in the details. im starting to develop the mindset that each food choice i make has a direct effect on my goals, and it's helping me conquer my demons.

mental aspects

as i said, it's been easier than expected. at least in the physical sense. the mental aspect is another story. i have opted to continue care with my pre-op psych to make sure i stay motivated and on the right path. there are days when i have some buyer's remorse, but that's becoming more and more rare. going out with family and friends is hard, but i'm learning ways around it. and PS for all you self conscious folks out there - if you don't make a big deal out of it or look like someone just killed your dog then NOBODY will ask why you're eating so little. they aren't paying attention. i promise.

all in all this was a great decision and a great tool to help me achieve my goals. i already feel better and am ready for more. can't wait to see what the next 6 months bring!

Congrats you have done great

I trained Jiu Jitsu and Judo for many years and can't wait to take a lighter me to the gym. Good luck on your return.

You sound like you are on the right track and doing amazing! Keep up the good work! Congrats on your weight loss so far!!