So I've done all the research (ok granted maybe a little too much) and I'm about 2 months out from my surgery date (April 15) and technically I'm still pending insurance approval but I'm taking all the steps and going through the process full steam ahead. I've definitely gone through a roller coaster of emotions since starting this journey, and I still get mixed emotions everyday. But I guess where im at now is the "fear" stage. I'm constantly thinking about complications, leaks, structure, infection, etc. I'm spending hours researching horror stories of things gone wrong and the aftermath of complications. I realize that with any surgery there are always risks and one must decide of the benefits will outweigh the risks. I guess that's the point I'm at now. I'm a lower bmi. I'm 31 years old, 238lbs and bmi of 37. I have a about 80lbs to lose to be considered at a healthy weight for my height. But I also have high blood pressure (for about 3 years controlled by medicine) and high cholesterol. My weight history has shown a consistent failure at conventional weight loss attempts and I progressively gain 8-10 lbs a year. So my fear is if I DON'T get the surgery I could end up weighting 50lbs more in 5 years. I know that this surgery is the answer (and I know it's not the "easy way out" and it takes work and the surgery is just a tool). I guess I'm just scared. Scared about the surgery itself and complications, leaks. AmI alone in this? Has anyone ever talked themselves out of the surgery before they hit the table? Is anyone else scared?

Research your doctor, I picked a great doctor and all he does is bariatrics. His leak rate is less than 1%. I had a pretty low bmi and am a mom. I didn't want to toss all of that a way on an elective surgery but I knew in my heart that this was not an elective surgery for me. I knew my issues with my weight and food were keeping me from living my best life and would ultimately take my health and life. I am 5 months post op- down 62 lbs and healthier and happier than I have ever been. This is not without risk, but neither is getting out of bed each day. Do your research, educate yourself like iggychick suggests and if this is your last resort to lose weight then do it. It was mine.

In the same boat. My date is March 5th' date=' and I'm scared to death. It's getting worse as it gets closer. I fear the unknown and just wish it was over already. I did this to myself and now i have to fix this. Reading the post op forums help me, cant wait to post there.[/quote']

My surgery is March 6. I am just afraid of not waking up and leaving my husband and 3 kids alone. My best friend had the same surgery with the same Dr so that makes me worry less. She weighed about what I weigh currently and other than being over weight I have no other health problems. I too wish it was over but I am so glad I have the opportunity to do it.

Here's what I know for sure.... 11 years ago, I weighed 238lbs.... Now, I weigh 310. I SO wish I had done this when I was 24. Good news is that I AM doing it now that I'm 34. I'm still you and beautiful and I'm looking forward to the rest of my life. Go for it girl!!!

I'm scared too!! I go in for it in less than 5 days!! We got this tho!! Right??!! Lol

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Positive thoughts you'll get through it... I'm in the process of researching about VSG & the website is helping me in making the right choice for a healthy life.