Hello, I am still pretty new here but im trying to find similar stories and experiences. My 1st follow up is tomorrow with the surgeon. I haven't been keeping good track on what amounts of liquids and foods im taking in. im starting to have a really hard time with excepting how hard this really is, i imagined it difficult but this is insane! i fantasize about any food now, i wish i could taste everything that comes on the damn commercials. im still in whole liquids but i have been cheating with small curd cottage cheese and refried beans the past few days. no nausea, just sudden fullness quickly after eating a few bites. i gave up on the one ounce cups to measure, now i just sip or eat slow in a small container. i have blender fantasies about junk food!

sorry i have not replied to you guys in forever! i fell into a deep hole of depression, poor me, pity me, all about me... i started taking more pain medicine just to feel a numb or temporary happiness. i think im finally moving past all that now. started work for the 1st time 2 days ago , boy was it rough being on my feet for 14 hours, my whole body ached. im now struggling with getting enough protein down. i dont really care for the shakes and my appetite is low because im tired of the same things. today i took a big leap and decided to eat half a protein burger from in n out. no discomfort few hours after but later in the night i got diarrhea. i dont plan on eating that kind of food i just wanted to feel somewhat normal. the weight is flying off of me but i dont think im eating right, i think i need to come here more often for support.

I am glad that you are moving past the pain medications. I think we each go though a rough patch. I know last weekend was tough for me. It is hard getting back into the swing of things at work. I work 10 hour shifts and I nap for about an hour when I get home. This is a complete lifestyle change and it doesn't happen overnight. I catch myself grabbing a bag of chips and heading to the couch without realizing what I am doing. I am not perfect and have eaten a cookie. I really didn't like it but just the feeling from eating it. Try to get back on track if at all possible. Does your doctor have support groups that you could go to? Keep coming bake here for support. You can do this!

I'm 15 days out, which is why the post caught my eye. I definitely didn't realize how hard it would be. I "miss" my old habits because they were so comforting... I'd kill to call Papa John's after work one day, but I know it'd probably send me back to the hospital. Same thing with commercials. I'm not even hungry, but when I see something on TV that looks good I get... sad! And then I feel pathetic for feeling sad about food. It really is an addiction. But then I see the pounds dropping off and I know I will be happier in the long run... Just gotta stay strong for the next couple of months.

And "celebrations" suck. I am trying really hard to focus on other activities (shopping, movies, etc) as a way to celebrate/relax, but it doesn't feel authentic (yet?). My family, for better or worse, loves to go out to eat and eat together. I feel like that is gone right now... Not looking forward to Christmas, but maybe it'll be better than I'm expecting.

Thanks for giving me a place to vent! Happy to know I'm not the only one going through this.

I was so happy when Christmas was over. That was a first for me. I was acutely aware of the big role food plays in holiday celebrations. Just glad that's done.

yes, food plays such a huge roll. last week i finally got a sitter and me and the wife went on a date. so hard to date without a lot of food haha. either way we went to pf changs and shared some mango chicken. my plate looked like one of those fancy restaraunts cause my portion was so small on such a big plate. the chopsticks slow you down too :-)