And now here's my whine- get the cheese. My surgeon requires all patients to lose 5% body weight before even a date gets set! I thought 'no biggie! I'll just drink shakes most of the time'. I really didn't realize how dependent I was on food. What do I do when I'm stressed or upset?! I eat.

So, I've been back and forth on these first 5 pounds lost. And now I'm starting stressed over the last 10! This is a terrible test. Worst one yet. What's with this dang self sabotage!

I've been planning and cooking dinner for my family and then fixing a shake for me. And tonight my boys weren't hungry and hubby was too busy to stop and eat. Screw this! Make dinner I can't eat so no one will eat it?! So my response was eat my bariatric Protein bars because there was nothing sweet in the house.

I just feel even more isolated from my family than before. I feel under so much pressure to just lose the weight. If I had a date, my drive would be stronger. It's hard to bust my hump for a hypothetical.

Sigh. Just a big whine. Having a pretty good pity party I guess

I totally feel you i gotta lose 13 or my surgert will be cancelled