Cold Feet Setting In..

10 days til surgery...still waiting on insurance..starting liquids wed...thought I was at peace with it but getting nervous. I want rid of this band so badly but scared of losing the adjustability. Will I ever be able to go to dinner with my family and eat a relatively decent amount of food without feeling like a weirdo??? Am I destined for kids meals? If I go out to say Outback after all healing, what might I be able to eat? Realistically? Of course it will be nice to go out and eat and not have to run to the restroom to barf like I do with the band but I guess I'm scared that I'm changing one set of issues for another! HELP!