October 5, 2011

I’m overwhelmed with anxiety and can’t turn my brain off, so much has happened in my life since I signed on last. I have wanted to get this procedure done for over 2 years but I was in a toxic marriage that took a lot of sacrifice on my part. I sacrificed my happiness, my health and overall wellbeing in the name of love but what I failed to realize was that was quite the opposite. You should not have to try so hard to make something work, you should never have to sacrifice who and what you are to make someone else happy. After a long 5 year relationship and 3 year marriage, that chapter of my life has come to a close. He cheated. I am left with my 2 year old beautiful daughter, bills, the unknown and all this weight. I am done, I am done living for other people and the only person that I will consider in my decisions is my baby. I want to live, I want to be able to run and play and be the mother I know I can be. I am at the lowest point in my life right now but the cool part about it is that I see the tiny flicker of light at the end of this dark cold tunnel. I have hope, I have dreams, I am going to make them my reality and start living for me.

No more sitting on the sidelines of life, I am in the game PUT ME IN COACH is my motto. I look forward to getting support and supporting others in this journey. I thank you for taking time to read and feel me, God will help me through this and I am certain I will make it to the top.

-mari

PS: I am getting the referral from my doctor again and need to schedule an oppointment for a consultaion with my surgeon soon. I will keep you all posted.

Awesome!!! Sometimes it takes a lot for us to drop the blinders and start living life!!! Blessings and peace.. Thanks for sharing and you are in my prayers!!!

Hello Chiquita, wow I'm very sorry to hear you're going through so much! However, I'm extremely glad to hear you're not letting this get you to a point where you're not willing to do something about YOU. Right now, that's where your focus should be (and your baby of course!). Please keep us updated on your journey! We are always here with an open ear. You're going to do fantastic, and you will get your life back!!

Thanks ladies, I really appreciate your kind words and support! I will keep you all updated on my progress, for sure.

-mari