Hey everyone,

I haven't posted much, but I lurk here quite often. I'm sitting in front of my laptop with a manometry tube down my nose, an uncomfortable lump in my throat, pain from gallstones, and anxiety because my pre-op is a week away. I was so motivated, exercising, changing my diet, doing everything they told me to. I'm strong, I'm smart, I know I can do anything I set my mind to, except lose weight on my own. And that, the fact that I can do anything but lose weight, is what is terrifying me about going through with this. The what if's. What if I go through with loosing over 70% of my stomach forever, with nothing to show? What if I subject myself to all this pain, torture, medical tests, a lifetime of not being "normal" to lose only 30 pounds? I know I'm in that pre-game jitter phase, and I recognize the crazy, self-doubting talk, but its starting to win and I need a little help.

we all have doubts......I still think I am losing slowly, but I am convinced at least what I have lost is really and truly gone forever. And here is a really big secret.......I would lose more if I made more of an effort and actually got off my ass and exercised like I did before my surgery, but I'm NOT mentioning that to my surgeon. lol He is happy with my loss the way its going

Thanks for the encouragement! being able to exercise is one of the things I look forward to doing once some of this weight is gone.

we all have doubts......I still think I am losing slowly, but I am convinced at least what I have lost is really and truly gone forever. And here is a really big secret.......I would lose more if I made more of an effort and actually got off my ass and exercised like I did before my surgery, but I'm NOT mentioning that to my surgeon. lol He is happy with my loss the way its going