I just looked at the calendar, and I realized that in exactly 4 weeks, I will be getting sleeved. I know it's the best thing for me, BUT....

Yes, I've changed my mind about 177 times just in the past month alone. I know I'm doing the best thing for myself. I have so much pain in my back, that I have trouble just walking around the house. So getting this weight off, and getting this pressure off of my back, is a #1 priority.

But still, I'm so nervous, and I'm finding that I play the 'WHAT IF" game with myself. You know...what if I don't make it through the surgery? What if I develop a leak? What if there is some other horrible thing that happens? I guess really, the list goes on and on.

Cheryl P. gave me some really great suggestions about cleaning out my cabinets of all things that I can't eat after the surgery, and replacing them with low fat, no fat foods. That was helpful, because it psyched me up a bit. But I am still so nervous, and yes, frightened. My pre-surgery appt is next Monday, and I just hope that in a moment of weakness, I don't tell the doc to just forget the whole thing.

Has anyone else felt this way before surgery? I guess right now, I just need someone to tell me that it's going to be ok, and that I should put on my big girl panties, and just do it, and stop being a big baby.

I will be 4 weeks this Wednesday! Holy crap it's coming up soon! I'm freaking out

Well i have 2 weesk as of tomorrow to my surgery date and yes i feel the same as you. But i know that its time that i take control of my life!!! All i can do is follow what i need to do and pray. i find that talking about my fears rather holding it in helps. i'm going to try to only think positively and i'm sure everything will be fine:)