dar36

I have been battling my weight since I was 27 years old.  I gained over 50 pounds in one year after taking an antidepressant medication.  I went on every diet imaginable, both on my own and under doctor supervision.  I also saw a nutritionist.  It was devastating tp be  heavy and unhealthy since I was always thin and athletic growing up and through college.  I got married at 28 years old and after several failed pregnancies, my OBGYN determined that I had PCOS.  No wonder weight loss was so difficult!  Any woman who has this dreaded condition understands how it effects every aspect of your life.  I finally gave birth to two beautiful boys, however, aftermy second child, I suffered severely from depression and anxiety.  I continued to gain weight and felt absolutely horrible, both physically and mentally.  My primary doctor ran blood work and of course everything was in "normal" range.  When I finally saw a new doctor, she referred me to an endocrinologist who ran extensive blood work and uncovered that I have a problem with my adrenal glands.  Finally, I was getting somewhere.  Unfortunately, it was determed that I had prediabetes.  This was a very big wake up call.  I thought about surgery since the summer of 2009 after a serious illness and a weight gain of 20 pounds within two months.  I had enough with gaining weight, losing weight, and gaining more and more weight.  It seemed no matter how much I exercised and watched what I ate, I could never maintain the weight loss.  After being diagnosed with PCOS, adrenal problems, hyperinsulinemia, high cholesterol, and sleep apnea, I had enough.  I want to be healthy for me, my husband, and my children.  We all deserve better. So, as of 5/28/2010, I have received clearance from my primary care doctor, my endocrinologist, my prescribing psychiatrist, and a cardiologist.  I am awaiting clearance from the pulmonologist, and then I guess the next step is the insurance game.  I am very nervous that they will deny this surgery, which will devestate me.I want to be healthy.  I want to walk without getting winded.  I want to reduce my chances of cancer, heart disease, and diabetes.  I want to recognize the face in the mirror again.  I want to live. I feel like this surgery is my only hope.My husband, mother, and best friend are very supportive.  However, I really feel like I need the support of all of the people on this site who know exactly what obesity feels like and what it does to someone not only physically, but emotionally. Although I have a great support system, I know that the connection I will feel with the people on this site will be excatly what I need.  I know I can make it through this journey with my creator, Jehovah God, my family, and my new friends on this site.