tonya66

Woke up - went to bathroom - then weighed. I always hold my breath when I weigh, its such a scary feeling. Well, the scales did go down, I took my docs advice and really upped my water intake. I was going to the bathroom all day yesterday! Wt - 182.7 (5 lb loss overnight!) Menu Bfast Coffee/cream Lunch lettuce wrap Dinner grilled fish

Yes, I ate so good yesterday, I worked out, I drank my water, and I was expecting to see the scales go down. Well, WRONG. They went up antoher 2 lbs! What the Heck? I am now more convinced than ever it has to be the steroids I'm taking making me gain.:biggrin::eek::frown::mad: I have put on more than 15 lbs in the past month. I've been taking them for 6 weeks now and this is my last week, thank gawd! I hope the weight falls off as quickly as it has come on. Besides the steroids, my fill level is not right, my life seems so out of control lately and I'm not dealing with it very well. Wonder if the steroids are making me moody too? Okay, I'm going to sign off and try and think positive!:tt2: Wt - 188.2

Yes, I ate so good yesterday, I worked out, I drank my water, and I was expecting to see the scales go down. Well, WRONG. They went up antoher 2 lbs! What the Heck? I am now more convinced than ever it has to be the steroids I'm taking making me gain.:party::eek::frown::mad: I have put on more than 15 lbs in the past month. I've been taking them for 6 weeks now and this is my last week, thank gawd! I hope the weight falls off as quickly as it has come on. Besides the steroids, my fill level is not right, my life seems so out of control lately and I'm not dealing with it very well. Wonder if the steroids are making me moody too? Okay, I'm going to sign off and try and think positive!:tt2: Wt - 188.2

I wake up this morning, weigh, and I'm up another 2 freaken pounds - grrrrr. I was so mad I kicked the scale and hurt my stupid knee. I am ready to throw the steroids in the trash! I refuse to take them any longer! I go see my doc on Monday and I'm going to tell her that, NO MORE STEROIDS! I have been taking them for 6 weeks now, no wonder I'm up all this weight! I was really mad when I stepped on the scales and it keeps going up, and I even exercised, I ate right and made good choices, so I was so mad this morning, I wanted to cry. I guess I will continue to take this until the end of the week so my eyes will heal, but after this week, no more!

I woke up this morning and noticed my face was so round. Well, I started reading the side effects of my medication that I'm taking and it turns out the big side effect if taken more than 14 days is weight gain! I'm on steroids, and have been on them since 1/17/08. So that explains the weight gain. Although I haven't made the right food choices, I was a little shocked that I had gained so much, because I never have in the past while not making the right food choices. So, I was a little depressed. Well this weekend I did really good with eating, and still gained another 3 lbs. Then I noticed my face looked distorted this morning. So I started researching the medication I'm on. Well, not only am I takig orally steroid, I'm also putting steroid drops in my eyes, so needless to say, its causing a weight gain. I should be off of it all by the end of this week. Scale this mornng was really ugly 186.2. I do think once I quit taking the steroids I will start losing. Okay menu today Bfast 1 egg 2 slices of turkey bacon Mid moring cup of coffee w/cream Lunch salad dressing on side Dinner ground hamburger salsa Exercise -

I woke up this morning and noticed my face was so round. Well, I started reading the side effects of my medication that I'm taking and it turns out the big side effect if taken more than 14 days is weight gain! I'm on steroids, and have been on them since 1/17/08. So that explains the weight gain. Although I haven't made the right food choices, I was a little shocked that I had gained so much, because I never have in the past while not making the right food choices. So, I was a little depressed. Well this weekend I did really good with eating, and still gained another 3 lbs. Then I noticed my face looked distorted this morning. So I started researching the medication I'm on. Well, not only am I takig orally steroid, I'm also putting steroid drops in my eyes, so needless to say, its causing a weight gain. I should be off of it all by the end of this week. Scale this mornng was really ugly 186.2. I do think once I quit taking the steroids I will start losing. Okay menu today Bfast 1 egg 2 slices of turkey bacon Mid moring cup of coffee w/cream Lunch salad dressing on side Dinner ground hamburger salsa Exercise -

I was reading my medicine I've been taking for my eyes - Most people only have to take it for 1 or 2 weeks, I've been having to take it for a month now. Anyhow, one of the side effects is WEIGHT GAIN! I noticed my face is very round this morning, and so I started reading the side effects and come to find out, I'm taking steroids. I didn't realize it was steroids, I thought I was just taking antiobotics. My eyes are healing, however, I am not at a crisp clear 20/20, and I'm just one of those slow healers, not sure if its because of my diabetes or what, but I always seem to take longer to heal. Anyhow, that helps to explain my dramatic weight gain I think. I am hoping to be off the steroids at the end of this week. I go see my eye doc on March 3rd, so I'm hoping she will take me off of them. I hope everyone had a great weekend.

I feel the same way! I just want to say I've lost 100 lbs! lol. Congratulations for hitting your goal, that is awesome! Thanks for all you guys' encouragement. I agree with all of you, I know what I need to do, I just need to do it now. I will stick with it. Getting back to the gym is the 1st thing. I need to be consistant with it, not just here and there. I need to do it 6 days a week, or at least 5! Well, i'm off to an appointment with my accountant, ttyl.

Thanks for asking that question. I updated the recipe, but normally 4 oz of fish have 20 grams of protein. I used talapia - the 4 oz is raw of course, after you cook it, it usually reduces down to about 3 oz, but it is still 20 g of protein. yum!

I made this last night and it was big hit! I'm eating it again today for lunch and it really is good. Enjoy! Ingredients: 4 Talapia filets (or any type of fish you like) 1/4 c. salad dressing, ranch, nonfat or lowfat 3 T. yogurt, plain, nonfat or lowfat 1 1/2 T. mustard 1/2 lb. spinach, fresh (I used a big bag of baby spinach) galic salt and various other spices to your liking (I used a little garlic and Emrils fish rub) Directions: Preheat oven to 400 degrees. Rinse fish, pat dry with paper towels and arrange in glass baking dish. Mix dressing, yogurt and mustard; spoon evenly over fish. Spice the fish up, use your favorite seasonings, doesn't take much as the salad dressing and mustard have some spice in them. I like to sprinkle a little of Emeril's fish rub on mine, then maybe a shake or two of the garlic salt. Bake until fish is no longer translucent, 8 to 10 minutes. (I cooked mine more like 15 - 20 min) Remove tough stems from spinach; rinse thoroughly and drain. (I didn't have to do this as I bought the baby spinach in a bag) Heat nonstick skillet over medium-high heat. When skillet is hot, add spinach and stir-fry just to wilt the leaves, about 30 seconds. (I also added a little pam butter flavored to the skilley to give it a little more flavor and seasoned the spinach with a squeeze of lemon and garlic salt) Arrange spinach single layer on serving plates; top with baked fish. Nutrition at a glance Each Serving Provides: amount per serving Calories 130 Total Fat 2 g Saturated Fat 0 g Cholesterol 53 mg Sodium 337 mg Carbohydrates 8 g Protein 20 g

Shawn/thanks for the kind words. I know what I need to do, so now I just need to do it. I need to quit making excuses and get serious and rededicated to my goals. I'm focussing on getting thru one day at a time now and just doing it. I did 80 good yesterdand and 20% bad I guess, but getting better everyday. TOM is here and not making me feel any better, but I will be successful and I'm focussing on getting my mojo back! DH & I will be making a schedule this weekend for workout schedules together, he wants to get into shape too, so he can be my workout buddy.

Wt 183.2 At least it is going down! Back hurts today, still bloated and cranky and just feel like poo poo. Did good last night, made baked fish and it was really good. Having it again for lunch today, I served it over wilted spinach leaves. yum. Need to up my water intake!

Wt 183.2 At least it is going down! Back hurts today, still bloated and cranky and just feel like poo poo. Did good last night, made baked fish and it was really good. Having it again for lunch today, I served it over wilted spinach leaves. yum. Need to up my water intake!

Wt today 184.6 - down .1 of a freaken pound. Tom came yesterday which explains my headache, bloat, fatigue, and cranky attitude. Did pretty good until last night, ate the rest of the choco chip cookies (3 of them) and now no more is allowed into the house. I threatened my family once, but slowly the junk food has crept back into our house. Focussin on me and only me for the next 3 months.

Wt today 184.6 - down .1 of a freaken pound. Tom came yesterday which explains my headache, bloat, fatigue, and cranky attitude. Did pretty good until last night, ate the rest of the choco chip cookies (3 of them) and now no more is allowed into the house. I threatened my family once, but slowly the junk food has crept back into our house. Focussin on me and only me for the next 3 months.

I Keep telling myself, okay, today I'm going to be back on track! Then, I do good, then fall off the wagon. I weighed this morning and I am up to 185 lbs! I weighed at one time 167! I am so disgusted with myself. I feel like the biggest PIG! I keep waiting on that "restriction" and it isn't happening. I get some, then lose it, or I get too tight. I'm so mad at myself that I screwed up, I used to have pretty good restriction at 3.8, but then tried to get tighter, and well, now I'm still trying to get that restriciton back! Sucks. I am using it as an excuse to eat what I want, when I want etc. Well, it was a major wake up call. I feel bad to keep typing in my journal how - I'm going to start and how good I'm going to do, then I don't. I keep breaking promises to myself. I have to be true to myself so I've got to take control - for good. It seems I do good for a week, then blow it for 2 weeks. Its a vicious cycle. The weight is creaping back on and I must stop it now! I must! I must! I was in tears this morning, but I am not going to "feel sorry" for myself, or beat myself up anymore. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. No more sweets, no more sugar! No more! Its time to pull my head out of the sand and quit doing the self destruction like I've done with every diet in the past. I am hoping to get my restriction back at my next fill - 4/7/08, but until then, I need to focus, really focus. I need to THINK before I eat, I need to plan my meals! I must exercise! I don't want to be a Band Failure, I want to be a success! Okay - my life will change. I will report my weight everyday on here. Good or bad, I'm also going to report my menu - good or bad! Wt 184.7 Exercise - Menu Protein shake - chocolate Whey protein, with added coffee Coffee with cream - no sugar Lunch - Roasted chicken, few bites of green beans and some corn Snack - 1/2 container of strawberry no sugar yogurt with a little grape nuts added in it. Dinner - Roast, few carrots

I Keep telling myself, okay, today I'm going to be back on track! Then, I do good, then fall off the wagon. I weighed this morning and I am up to 185 lbs! I weighed at one time 167! I am so disgusted with myself. I feel like the biggest PIG! I keep waiting on that "restriction" and it isn't happening. I get some, then lose it, or I get too tight. I'm so mad at myself that I screwed up, I used to have pretty good restriction at 3.8, but then tried to get tighter, and well, now I'm still trying to get that restriciton back! Sucks. I am using it as an excuse to eat what I want, when I want etc. Well, it was a major wake up call. I feel bad to keep typing in my journal how - I'm going to start and how good I'm going to do, then I don't. I keep breaking promises to myself. I have to be true to myself so I've got to take control - for good. It seems I do good for a week, then blow it for 2 weeks. Its a vicious cycle. The weight is creaping back on and I must stop it now! I must! I must! I was in tears this morning, but I am not going to "feel sorry" for myself, or beat myself up anymore. I can't change the past, but I can change the future. No more sweets, no more sugar! No more! Its time to pull my head out of the sand and quit doing the self destruction like I've done with every diet in the past. I am hoping to get my restriction back at my next fill - 4/7/08, but until then, I need to focus, really focus. I need to THINK before I eat, I need to plan my meals! I must exercise! I don't want to be a Band Failure, I want to be a success! Okay - my life will change. I will report my weight everyday on here. Good or bad, I'm also going to report my menu - good or bad! Wt 184.7 Exercise - Menu Protein shake - chocolate Whey protein, with added coffee Coffee with cream - no sugar Lunch - Roasted chicken, few bites of green beans and some corn Snack - 1/2 container of strawberry no sugar yogurt with a little grape nuts added in it. Dinner - Roast, few carrots

I saw your before/after pics - you look GREAT! You were banded 1 day before me, so we're "almost" band twins Congratulations on your tremendous success!

Cindi - how cool, a personal trainer! I am thinking about getting one myself, but talking to a few of them I work with, I might be able to get a good deal from a friend. He is a PT in his spare time (usually 5 am and on weekends) so he is giving me some pointers. However, I thinking working directly with one, so much better! Loser - good job, I know that is exciting when the scale moves. Unfortunately, mine has moved the WRONG way.:thumbup: But, it was wake up call for me. I need to quit making excuses, I have to be true to myself! I have to quit breaking promises to myself! I have to quit waiting on the band, I mentally think "when I get the right fill", well, the right fill might not come, so its time to take contral and keep it. I do great for a week, then blow it for 2! I must quit the insanity! So far, made it 2 days to the gym, will continue going!

Shawn - I think I did feel some restriction, but then I got lose again and I was thinking yesterday how lose I was. But then morning, I'm tight again....not too tight, but I can feel the coffee I drank gurgle down, I can hear it too. lol. Lynn - we're thinking about you today! I weighed this morning, and OH MY, it was a wake up call, I was up to 185lbs!!!!! I am SICK about it! I know I feel bloated and TOM is 'round the corner, but 15 lb gain? I am just sick that I have gained weight! But it was enough of a shock to me that I said NO MORE! I cannot wait on the band to do the job, I have got to take control and I will. I just can't stand by and let the pounds roll back on. So, it was a wake up call. I know I'm holding a lot of Water too, we were traveling all weekend and when we travel, I tend to hold a lot of water weight, but still, I know I"m up, quite a bit and it's time to get control. So, I was at the gym yesterday and today. Its time to recommit myself for good, and not just hear and there. Summer is around the corner, and so is my cruise! I refuse to go looking like I do now! Its time to quit feeling sorry for myself and get back on track!

Hello all - been away for the weekend. I did get my bonus news, but it turns out me being off work for 10 weeks also cost me $800 dollars off my bonus! Oh Well, nothing I can do about it now, or then. I had to take off for major surgery - there was no way I could have worked, way too much pain. I am going to start the pouch test again - today, this weekend put a damper in it for me. I'm also getting ready for my TOM visit. I haven't weighed so I know I'm up, feeling really bloated. Exercising for me has sucked lately, but heading down to the gym in a few minutes to do 20 - 30 minutes of something productive. Lynn - I'm so excited for you and your tummy tuck, tomorrow is the big day! Keep us posted!

Fill #1 - 3/6/07 - 2.2cc's Fill #2 - 4/17/07 - 3.0cc's Fill #3 - 7/6/07 - 3.5 cc's (I think it was only 2.5cc's because when I went back for fill #4, he could only w/draw 1.8 cc's) Fill #4 - 7/20/07 - filled me back to 3.0 ccs - He should have filled me more! Fill #5 - 8/17/07 - 3.4cc's Fill #6 - 10/08/07 - filled me to 3.8cc's - the restriction I've ever had,but still could eat big bites of food, so I figured I needed to be tighter. Fill #7 - 11/21/07 filled to 4.0 cc's. By the evening could not hold anything down, not even my saliva. PBing all night - horrilble experieince 11/23/07 - Unfill - Got unfill and because of the swelling and all the PBing, doc took my fill down to 3.0cc's. NO RESTRICTION AGAIN Fill #8 - 1/18/08 Went in and the doc filled me back up to just right under 4.0, according to Flouro, it was perfect. Well, by next morning, could not hold down saliva again, ended up back in hospital and the Doc had to take me back down to 3.0. grrrr. Now I'm back where I was in November, barely restriction again. Fill #9 - 3.5 cc's - was tight for about a week, now feel lose again. grrrr, still have "some" restriction, just not quite enough! Next fill scheduled for 4/7/08 - I hate that it takes sooooooo long to get in to see the fill doc.

Fill #1 - 3/6/07 - 2.2cc's Fill #2 - 4/17/07 - 3.0cc's Fill #3 - 7/6/07 - 3.5 cc's (I think it was only 2.5cc's because when I went back for fill #4, he could only w/draw 1.8 cc's) Fill #4 - 7/20/07 - filled me back to 3.0 ccs - He should have filled me more! Fill #5 - 8/17/07 - 3.4cc's Fill #6 - 10/08/07 - filled me to 3.8cc's - the restriction I've ever had,but still could eat big bites of food, so I figured I needed to be tighter. Fill #7 - 11/21/07 filled to 4.0 cc's. By the evening could not hold anything down, not even my saliva. PBing all night - horrilble experieince 11/23/07 - Unfill - Got unfill and because of the swelling and all the PBing, doc took my fill down to 3.0cc's. NO RESTRICTION AGAIN Fill #8 - 1/18/08 Went in and the doc filled me back up to just right under 4.0, according to Flouro, it was perfect. Well, by next morning, could not hold down saliva again, ended up back in hospital and the Doc had to take me back down to 3.0. grrrr. Now I'm back where I was in November, barely restriction again. Fill #9 - 3.5 cc's - was tight for about a week, now feel lose again. grrrr, still have "some" restriction, just not quite enough! Next fill scheduled for 4/7/08 - I hate that it takes sooooooo long to get in to see the fill doc.:thumbup:

Today marks 13 months post op. I feel like I'm sinking these days. My fill has losened up, which I was hoping it wouldn't. I have my next fill on 4/7 - so long to wait, but I am trying so hard and just feel like I'm failing. I should be happy, and for the most part I am, I just am ready to lose my final weight! Will post more later.

Today marks 13 months post op. I feel like I'm sinking these days. My fill has losened up, which I was hoping it wouldn't. I have my next fill on 4/7 - so long to wait, but I am trying so hard and just feel like I'm failing. I should be happy, and for the most part I am, I just am ready to lose my final weight! Will post more later.