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see the things is, i knew what it was about and i know id have to workout and eat right...and im not doing that...just get so mad at myself, with the knowledge i have.

natalia i am right there with you! i was banded in nov 09 and have lost 40. i have been the same weight and size since april. the band has helped me not gain. im not eating right or working out. i thought the same thing when i went for my final fill the other day. "what will they think of my loss and im at my max fill" they didnt get mad or critisize me at all. it was nerve racking though. we can do this!!!!

I feel like im beating a dead horse with this whole, i fell off track thing. I read back on my posts from months ago, and i feel im still at the same place. im not working out, not eating what i should and NOW im at my max fill. just got filled the other day. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME? was i really ready for the lapband? was i ready to change my eating habits? was i ready? i feel as if i were i would have co-operated by now! u also think i would be motivated. im a matron of honor in my sisters wedding in october and i hate my fat arms!!! what is wrong with me! (sighs)

so funny how things go hand in hand. i feel ive been a bit off track. im a 6cc in a 11cc band. i go for my 3rd fill in 2 weeks. also i looked and im not on this site as much so its easy to forget ive been banded. as weird as that might sound.:frown: i have a tool! i need to use it!:thumbup: back to liquids for a couple days for me. i know i can do it. i need to be focused. back to the gym today for me too. i can just feel that my next fill will help me. i just know it. when people use to say "oh ive gained on the band or oh it doesnt work" well now i know why. its because they gave up. they didnt get re-focused. its so easy to lose the focus. and i dont wanna be that person. im not gonna give up on my band. im gonna get re focused. i cant wait to find my "sweet spot" thats gonna be awesome. but in the meantime i need to stop eating the sweets!:redface:

so funny how things go hand in hand. i feel ive been a bit off track. im a 6cc in a 11cc band. i go for my 3rd fill in 2 weeks. also i looked and im not on this site as much so its easy to forget ive been banded. as weird as that might sound.:crying: i have a tool! i need to use it! back to liquids for a couple days for me. i know i can do it. i need to be focused. back to the gym today for me too. i can just feel that my next fill will help me. i just know it. when people use to say "oh ive gained on the band or oh it doesnt work" well now i know why. its because they gave up. they didnt get re-focused. its so easy to lose the focus. and i dont wanna be that person. im not gonna give up on my band. im gonna get re focused. i cant wait to find my "sweet spot" thats gonna be awesome. but in the meantime i need to stop eating the sweets!

you took the words right out of my mouth! i feel the exact same way! right now im 6cc ina 11cc band but feel the same as 4cc. i egt my 3rd fill march 8th i believe. also im struggling with finding a good menu plan every day. its very easy to go back to my old ways. i also need to do a liquid diet to get going again. im going grocery shopping today and starting my work out. i want to find my sweet spot!

so this week has been a series of trial and error. and its only tuesday! Sunday had a family dinner and def had some sangria. i grazed and drank. then on monday i said im gonna be good. people at work ordered burgers and i got one. ate the burger at noon. totally didnt eat slow and totally ate the whole thing. i was ssoooooooo stuffed i couldnt possibly eat anything for rest of the day and night. i sipped water. that was the first time i have ever ate to feel that full. WHATA MISTAKE! today im very bloated. im barely ate all day. i sipped crystal light. my friend dragged my butt to the gym for the 2nd time in a week. (trying to get my groove back) i decided i was gonna weight myself. to my surprize i lost weight since my fill 3 weeks back and im 1 pound away from losing 30. phew....that def gave me a lil confidence back since ive been so horrible this week. and actually if i wasnt so bloated ive prob lost more. ill take the loss.:w00t:

so this week has been a series of trial and error. and its only tuesday! Sunday had a family dinner and def had some sangria. i grazed and drank. then on monday i said im gonna be good. people at work ordered burgers and i got one. ate the burger at noon. totally didnt eat slow and totally ate the whole thing. i was ssoooooooo stuffed i couldnt possibly eat anything for rest of the day and night. i sipped water. that was the first time i have ever ate to feel that full. WHATA MISTAKE! today im very bloated. im barely ate all day. i sipped crystal light. my friend dragged my butt to the gym for the 2nd time in a week. (trying to get my groove back) i decided i was gonna weight myself. to my surprize i lost weight since my fill 3 weeks back and im 1 pound away from losing 30. phew....that def gave me a lil confidence back since ive been so horrible this week. and actually if i wasnt so bloated ive prob lost more. ill take the loss.:thumbup:

so yesterday was my first day working out! to me it wasnt a full work out though. i worked out for 20 min. wow am i outta shape or what. first time doing exercise in 7 weeks. i was so hungry all day long yesterday! my metabolism was racing and just kept trying to get good amount of protein to control my hunger. it was hard. i am so tired today not only did i work out but i worked 12 hours yesterday and got 7 hours of sleep. ouch. not my normal day thats for sure. im so tired today and really should get my butt into gear. maybe ill work out after work today at 3 and let my body rest for the morning. i also started my REALIZE food diary yesterday. i do need to customize it a little. god losing weight is alot of work!!! :mad:

so yesterday was my first day working out! to me it wasnt a full work out though. i worked out for 20 min. wow am i outta shape or what. first time doing exercise in 7 weeks. i was so hungry all day long yesterday! my metabolism was racing and just kept trying to get good amount of protein to control my hunger. it was hard. i am so tired today not only did i work out but i worked 12 hours yesterday and got 7 hours of sleep. ouch. not my normal day thats for sure. im so tired today and really should get my butt into gear. maybe ill work out after work today at 3 and let my body rest for the morning. i also started my REALIZE food diary yesterday. i do need to customize it a little. god losing weight is alot of work!!! :smile2:

hhmm sounds like i could give it a try. im not eating anything new or different just not alot of junk. nothing do different that would make me go hmm.. thanks

so besides needing to get back on track. something is new and gross! BODY ODOR! i have NEVER smelled bad and when i was sweating cause i was to hot from the heat im my house or starting to work out I SMELLED! this is so weird! has anyone expeirenced this? losing weight and im smelling? i need answers lol but my best friend motivated me today! i pretty much can eat and drink anything EXCEPT soda! so i do have restriction but instead of 12 cookies its one! not the right mind set. now i see why its so easy to get off track! she reminded me that HELLO U HAVE THE BAND USE IT! :smile2:

so besides needing to get back on track. something is new and gross! BODY ODOR! i have NEVER smelled bad and when i was sweating cause i was to hot from the heat im my house or starting to work out I SMELLED! this is so weird! has anyone expeirenced this? losing weight and im smelling? i need answers lol but my best friend motivated me today! i pretty much can eat and drink anything EXCEPT soda! so i do have restriction but instead of 12 cookies its one! not the right mind set. now i see why its so easy to get off track! she reminded me that HELLO U HAVE THE BAND USE IT!

first few days seem like hell! especially when my mom was here cooking for my kids while my husband was working and she would cook these unbelievable turkey burgers. wow turkey burgers never smelled so good lol. but u know what a couple weeks after that i tested myself and could start eating and now im 7 weeks out and able to eat whatever again. well for having the lapband lol. be strong remember its day by day. take it one day at a time! u can do it!

Happy new year everyone! so basically new years eve i cooked at my house and we had all protein! lol i thought it was pretty funny when i finally looked at what i cooked. lots of fish and chicken. not that it was all cooked healthy but it wasnt entirely full of fat either.:smile2: i grazed all night and because i was eatin and eatin i only ended up drinking one glass of wine. all that i ate when i grazed i probably still didnt eat as much as i would of if i didnt have the band. altough it seems like a lot to me i have to keep reminding myself, its not as much as before! i love food what can i say!:thumbup: