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I haven't been on in a long while, mainly because i am so disappointed in myself ONCE AGAIN!! I weighed 290 morning of surgery 6/29/09 and did really good till the last 4 weeks and I'm stuck at 276!!!! ..... and yes, yet again I feel that I am manipulating myself. I'm so mad at myself for not following all the rules and sticking with it...... i guess everytime I heard them say, "It's a tool, NOT wonder fix" I thought maybe it would be a wonder fix in some sick way??????? Mind working on me AGAIN!! I go for my FIRST FILL this Friday 14th and actually feel I should have had one like 4 weeks ago,because I am ALWAYS STARVING!!! I sure hope & pray once I get this fill that it will get me back to being motivated. I also know that starting back to school on the 19th will REALLY help me, cause being off and at home is a huge part of the problem. I need some major encouragement................thanks for getting me back on the chat!!!

I'm a lefty......5 inches to left of BB.

WHOOP WHOOP Everyone..... i just did the EA SportActive with the WII...... OMG i can honestly say it was fun!!! I sent the boys to WalMart & they set it up awhile ago & i have to say for this 49yr old couch tator..... i actually broke a sweat & burned 178 calories in 16 minutes!! YEAH!!! I have not worked out or done any form of exercise in 3 or 4 years, except for my walking this past week and I think i've found my FAV THING! Was not able to do the knee bends, legs crunches, & lunges, cause my knees KILL ME all the time (i would to carrying around 300+ lbs) so i just skipped those and it was ok....yes it was! WELL WORTH the MONEY!!!!!

I hear ya iwannabhappy!! Not to mention that EVERY OTHER TV commercial is about food!!!!!!! ARGGGGGGG!!! No wonder Amercia is SO overweight! What i'm finding hard is the lifestyle that we had for the last 7 or so years during the summer when I'm off with the boys (hubby only home 2days a wk : )) is VERY hard now that i have had surgery. Our home has always been (since MiddleSchool) the free restuarant (I've always cook'd lots of extras), free motel & the free pit stop!!! I have ALWAYS been a night owl, and ESPECIALLY during the summer months that I am off. The kids all know this and come in from dates or whatever & stop by on their way home or stay here instead of going home & it is nothing for us to stick a movie in no matter 1am or 2am. This is continuing, but it is so much harder for me now, because they are all coming in with Whutaburger taquitos or etc....... and it is absolutely kill'n me!!! i have found myself spending a lot more time in my bedroom and on the computer..... Thankfully able to whine to you guys!! : ) I know that the middle of Aug when they all head off to college, it will be so much different, but till then...... YIKES!!! Right now as I type this, there are 9 boys (only 1 mine) on my patio, starting to grill fajaitas! I do not want to discourage them because our home has always had an open door policy, but i will say it is going to be a tough month & half!

amserz, what is geek yogart? We don't have Trader Joes down here in Texas that I know of....... is there a website or something I can google? Also i too, feel alot like I need to burp and then nothing....it is kinda frustrating!

Hey iwannabehappy...... i have to admit i cheated on FrenchVanilla Pudding my son had in the refrig.....OMG it WAS SO GOOD!!! Today is 1 wk for me & i get to have mashed pot & cooked veggies, so i'm REALLY looking forward to that in a bit. I will say it again...... the sugar-free popcicles are REALLY good when you just have to have something & want to chew (well at least for me they have been). Keep them handy & next time you feel the need to raid, just go ahead & let yourself but have a popcicle. They really do help! As far as burping...... yes, I have been also!! I feel like I should be in a football locker room, cause they are crazy ones (seem to last a full minute & half). I too, get pain in left shoulder once or twice a day, but it seems to just go away on it's own. Good luck tomorrow & stop beating yourself up & go eat a nice, cold, crunchy, sweet, but sugar-free succulent grape popcicle!! : )

Bless your heart!!! I mean really.....this is tough enough to go through normally and then to add all of that! WOW You ARE A TROOPER!!! Hopefully your meds will take care of it and you continue on this journey as normal. Good luck and keep us informed on how your doing. : )

QUESTION....... why no Whey protein???? I have a huge jug of it, that I was told by my doctors patient liason it is fine to use, so THAT IS WHAT i have been making all of my protein shakes with for the last 3/4 weeks, also adding it to just about everything else! YIKES!! What is wrong with it?

AMSERZ..... i too have the same feelings, so PLEASE don't get discouraged & think you're the only 1. I have actually been STARVING since Thursday!!!! I have found that drinking the protein shake 3 times is helping but not all the way. To satisfy my need OR MENTAL need to chew, I am eating the heck out of SF popcycles!!! They do help. Right now as we speak, both boys (19&18) came in from church with cheeseburgers&ff..... so i am confined to my bedroom until they are finished & i even make them spray OUST to remove the lingering smells. Partly because I was getting nauseated sp? from the different food smells AND because it is killing me to smell it.... OK I SAID IT!!!!!! This is a journey that we all made a decision to be on and we just need to stick it out through this tough/hard time. PLEASE don't give up yet! Everyone says being thin feels so much better than a cheeseburger tastes!!!! So i'm trying to keep telling my self this and because both of my sons are leaving/moving out at the same time in August to go to Texas A&M WHOOP AGGIES!!! and i want to do this for them also......

I've never heard of the pain management ball????? He had to pull it out of where?? haha Wow!

I was told not to swallow my morning pills except for the 2 hard small ones, but the capsules (take 2diff) i have to open & mix w/something and take that way. I was told that the outer coating (sticky) capsule has a tendency to get stuck (which makes sense to me), therefore I am not gonna chance it. I assumed the coating on the Phayzme95 would do the same thing, so I am not gonna chance it either!! Just me a big chicken!

oh & i HIGHLY recommend the Phayzme95 over GasX strips.... Today i had 1 at 7:30am and can tell it's time for another. I just use a pin & stick it in the end & squeeze in to a spoon. Also, I have 4 incisions, 3 up high under breasts & 4th (Port) on the left side. The only one that bothers me is the Port incision. My BIG QUESTION is......... i have not had a BM yet!????!!! Starting to get worried about that too!!! How about everyone else? Sorry for asking, but it is starting to bother me!