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Okay, I'm just curious what everyone craves the most, salty crunchy or sweet creamy.

Thats bad. Boy, that girl that does her own fills, sounding pretty good now, huh?

Yes, I agree with Mandi. I think your thinking that you won't be able to eat like you did before. Thats making you nervous, but when your banded you wont want to eat what you did before because you will be full and satisfied. Having said that, when I had "my little moment" there last week, it was kinda about that. I was (for whatever reason) feeling the need to binge. If I wasnt banded I would have absolutly have eaten everything I could have found. But I couldn't, and when I did manage to feed myself I had to chew and chew, and that takes away the fix. So I was frustrated, I (we) have to find another way to satisfy that, THAT IS NOT HUNGER, it is whatever it is that has brought us to the band to begin with. At the most worse time last week, when I was really feeling crazed, you would have NEVER, NEVER convinced me to take out my band. It's mine, it helps me to stay on track, to be strong, etc....

What's up with this guy, it takes 10, 15 minutes tops. Keep trying, is there no one within a few hundred kilos, that can? I can't believe your stuck, it dosent make any sense.

Hi Maria, Its pretty easy. I'm really computer dumb, and I've mastered the PM thing. 1. Go back to Argons post and click on "Argon". 2. Scroll down to "send a private message to argon", and click on it. 3. Type your message. 4. Click "send message". And when someone has sent to a message the "do-hickey" up on private message, under welcome, on the top,right hand side of the page will flash, and you just have to click it. I'm going to send you a PM so you can try it!

Oh man, that really sucks. What if you called Dr. Cobourn's office and tell them what happened. Maybe he would call for you, you know that "doc to doc" kinda thing. It's worth a try.

I think she was trying to let it sneak by without us knowing....HA!

:faint: I did it, I exercised for 30 minutes last night, just about near killed me.

Oh no I missed it!!! :happybday: :happybday2: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR YODAAAA HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! .........and many mooooorrrrrre :happybday2: :happybday: :eek::party:how's my singing:party:

That sucks, they should have got there money back.I know when I got my fill, after they put it in, they took it back out to make sure they found the right spot, if they don't do that, maybe you should ask them to.:confused:

Kim - ya there are I think two different size bands, the surgeons don't know which one until they see during surgery. Both work the same way. But hold different amounts of saline. Look at you go . You are in the home stretch now Kim. We all told you you could do it, and you didn't let us (and yourself) down!! Yoda - Do you and your husband own the restaurant he is a chef in? If yes what do you do there?

Oh surrrrrrre Yoda, and ya I think I wouldnt talk. When is your birthday, I'll be 41 in September:cry wait....................:confused: that's more like it;)

when do you go for your fill?

Thanks for the info, if you think of it you should come back and remind us all about it the night before, too.:confused:

Leila, what's up with your fills? What band do you have, and how many fills, what are you at now?.........Nosey eh? Just wondering cause I think I might call for a little fill. :confused:

Okay, Okay, August 3rd and I haven't exercized yet. But I AM today!!! Is anyone else in Ontario going mad with this heat?

Wow, I cannot begin to tell you how much you all have touched my heart. I was literally crying while reading all your posts. I cannot believe the response I recieved with the PM's too, I'm overwhelmed. It's so nice to be able to talk to those who actually KNOW what your feeling. I hope you all don't think that I'm really a negative person, mostly I'm the opposite. But there I go again "addictive, all-or-nothing" personality. Either up or down, hungry or full, happy or sad......................Alas, I think, what I'm getting out of all this is to find a happy medium, right? Allow myself to be a little sad or a little hungry etc... I think you guys hit the nail on the head( as if I had any doubt), because when I told my husband a few months back about the band, these were his words. "Don't do this for me, but if it's something you would like, do it.........then he said, what if you end up needing to go to the casino again?" Thats what your talking about too, right? But how do I know something is addictive? I know I cannot go to the casino without risking gambleling again. And howcome I havent been an alcoholic? or a drug addict? Anyway, too ALL of you guys who posted, I thank-you, I came home from town, sat down at my copmuter and was amazed, I feel soo lucky to be able to talk to you all. Only one thing left to say- TAMMY, YOUR A SIZE 8!!!! WOW, you must feel great!!

Thank you to you guys for be honest with me, for not sugar coating anything, I would like this conversation to be honest without hostility. Thank you Wheetsin, I've been peeking in on you from time to time. Your doing so well, you were banded a month or two before me, so I've been watching your journey and being inspired. Okay so this is how I feel.....I hear you when you say "part of me wants to be fat". When I read the posts that say, go to weight watchers or hypno or whatever, I get angry. Remember, I'm trying to be honest not hostile, but if I can't tell you how I feel then I can't get threw this, so please don't take offence. I am forty years old.....I spent my twenties in therapy, every kind you can think of. I've spent enough money and hours there to save the world. I spent my thirties reading self-help books, I've got a library. In the past year or two I came to the conclusion that I am happy with me. I'm happy being at home, I don't have huge career goals like the world said I should. I'm happy with my husband and he treats me wonderful. I have raised 3 great children, who are turning out wonderfully, I can see this and so can others. I have two parents who are still alive who love me very much, and a childhood most would want. I live very well, and my husband and whole family are very supportive of me. I DO have an addictive personality. I use to smoke and quit that on MY own. I use to gamble(and it was bad)and I quit that on MY own. So I eat, and eat, now I'm banded and I do not want to go see a therapist who usually has a personal life worse than mine. I know I have the strength to do this, it's just the hardest thing I have ever done. So if there is anyone out there left that I havn't scared off I would love to continue this conversation. Oh, also, I started therapy years ago mostly to help me cope with being 26, married and 3 babies:wacko: . And the self-help books, I thought, felt like a waste of time, they just seemed like they wanted to label me with something I wasn't. Please again, I don't want anyone to take offence to this, I don't want to come across as defended myself, more just to give you some info about me, to people who know what its like to medicate with food.

Thats what it feels like, I feel like my body is having a temper tantrum. Like an anxiety or something. Is it some kind of emotional withdrawal from food that took two months to fester? What is OA?

First off I do not want any pity partys, or violins playing. I would like it if someone could reconize what I'm doing, and suggest something to help me get my _hit together. AAAAhhhhhh, after finally getting below 300(huge goal for me) and fitting into smaller clothes sizes. Apparently, somewhere in my brain I need to sabotage myself. For the last 2 days I wont stop eatting. Now, it's nothing like before banding, which actually is pissing me off more, cause I have to chew, chew, chew and it takes me forever to binge. But when I can eat I do. Whats up? This is why I needed banding, because if this was a regular diet and I lost, this is when I would have fell off the wagon and gained all and more than before. Should I get a fill and make myself stop( even though that would be emotional torture), do I just ride it out and hope I don't continue. It's been sooooo hot here were I live, and there's been so many of my kids friends and familys here to swim, and with all that comes all the junk food, and of course nobody wants to cook proper meals, so eating has been weird. I don't know, I know I need a kick in the ass, but how do you stop this insane cycle and go straight forward.

Mandi, it's really hard to be good when your other half, like mine, can eat anything. It dosent seem fair to ask them not to bring that stuff in the house. Although they care and try to understand, I don't think they can. Honestly, my guy will eat 5 chips and put them away, or a 1/2 cup ice cream and say he's done for now. WHAT, I don't know how they do it. It dosent seem fair. At the same time, when he does feel like polishing off everything, it wont make a difference, I think he's only flucuated 1-2 pounds his entire life, Ahhhhh! I sympothize with you. I know where your coming from.

:laugh OMG, that is way soooooooooooo funny, Mandi, wait till yoda sees it!!

hi kim, im really not to sure about innisfil, i think there taxes are cheap cause they get soooo much from the casino at the horse-race place. also close to shopping(that can be good or bad).

I don't even know what your talking about:angel: .

that dosent seem like much food to me, or compared to me. Let's see, today I had a coffee at 8:00, egg salad sandwich at 10:00, egg salad on a tortilla wrap (but only ate half, I was sick of it) at 1:30,and for dinner tonight at 6:00 I had 2 corn on a cob, 1/2 a piece of chick parm, and 1/2 a tortilla wrap with a few peices of chicken breast wrapped in it. I'm satisfied right now but I bet I'll want to eat more around 8:00, we'll see. Last night for dinner I ate 3 chicken fingers, 1 scoop of corn and 1 scoop of pasta salad. These dinners just seem to be alot of food for someone who is banded, don't they? However they pale in comparison to what I would have ate a couple months ago:faint: . I'm not really sure what to do. Maybe I should just give it another week and see, dunno.