I am so glad to hear that I am not alone. My surgery is April 21!!! This monday!!!!!!!! I have been ok up until this week. My husband (who was supposed to get the band first but when going through testing for the band they found Cancer. They operated and they say he is ok now, just has to get another body scan in 6 months to make sure) keeps saying that I have been a little crabby and keeps asking if I want to back out. I DON'T. But I am terrified I guess because its forever. I am so ready to be thin and healthy forever but also scared to death. I thought I was crazy, so glad to see I am not alone. I believe we can all do this and its going to be an amazing scary wonderful ride. Good Luck to all of you.