how I feel daily; never thought i'd have enough courage to bare my soul on a forum like this, but the only place where many people are the same as me. I decided to try this out. I have nutrician appt coming up next week. I have to wait according to insurance till Jan after completing my classes. I am ready. Take it al in. Finally can look at myself and tell this ol'girl hey you deserve a new begining in your later forties to give yourself a better quality of life. I come from a family of eaters, family of health problems and I just need to look out for me. Well, i thank all of you out there who have helped me with this choice. It took a lot of before and afters, tears watching these videos and posts for me to say....Man girl, that is your life your story too......Thank you peeps wish me luck on this baby step journey to the final outcome.