mandyjo

I am almost at my goal. I have done weight watcher in the past. I am pretty confident in my food choices most of the time now. But I think having the scale once a week would be good for me. I don't know how they would react with my surgery... any ideas?

I was looking at my wedding pictures the other day. I was not as heavy as I was before my surgery. But I look at myself now and wonder if I would have done things differently if I would have been a size 8 at the time I got married... Do you ever feel you wish you would have had the surgery done sooner? What held you back? It was fear for me... I am glad I am done and am at my goal. I am just doing a little reflecting.

Has anyone had shingles? I went to the doc today and he said I had them. He was really busy... so I couldn't ask him a lot of questions. How long do they last? I know they are painful. What causes it?

Ok, so I am not so happy right now. I am trying to take it one day at a time. But my scale keeps going up everyday. I am feeling really desperate. I don't like feeling this way. I am trying to work with my band. I start out good in the morning but by the end of the dayI have messed it all up. I guess if I want this to work I have to choice how I want to live. I should have made this change 13 months ago. I thought I had....

Ok, so I am not so happy right now. I am trying to take it one day at a time. But my scale keeps going up everyday. I am feeling really desperate. I don't like feeling this way. I am trying to work with my band. I start out good in the morning but by the end of the dayI have messed it all up. I guess if I want this to work I have to choice how I want to live. I should have made this change 13 months ago. I thought I had....

I was filled on Wensday. I have been able to maintain my weight the last few days. I feel good. I am hoping to get the extra 14 lbs off in the next few months. The doc said a lot of the weight is probably water weight. Doesn't make me feel much better. But I'll take it if I have too

I haven't evened out yet. That is why I am going in tomorrow to get a fill. I am scared because the scale moves everymorning. I became to dehydrated on a day outside and then was never able to caught up. I then my band got tight and couldn't get water down. (stress)

I wasn't required to go to any support groups. We didn't have on in this area until I was 9 months post op. I am so very glad they started one. It has been great for me to go everyother week. To hear the struggles of others makes me feel normal. We have to make out own normal and this is one good way for me to make my own normal.

I was majorly dehydrated!!!

Here is a little backround.... I hit my goal of 150 at the first of June. I continued to lose to the tune of 143. I was unable to keep food down and got very sick. I was blacking out at pints in the day. I was have major muscle pain. I went in for an unfill in my 10cc band. I had a fill back in Feb. and had over 6cc in my band. When the doc went to unfill I only had 5cc's. He took out 2.5. I have felt 100% better. He told me he wanted me to gain 10lbs. Well I have gain 19 in 8 days???? I am pufffy and bloated. Will this level out? Will some of the water weight come off? Any suggestions? I know I should have gone in to the doc sooner!!!!

Ok so in my last blog the doc told me to gain 10 pounds. Well since monday a week ago I have gain 19 pounds. I know A LOT of this is water. Now I am so puffy my eyes are even puffy.... I am getting a fill tomorrow. ANy other ideas? WIll I level off?

Ok so in my last blog the doc told me to gain 10 pounds. Well since monday a week ago I have gain 19 pounds. I know A LOT of this is water. Now I am so puffy my eyes are even puffy.... I am getting a fill tomorrow. ANy other ideas? WIll I level off?

I went out with a friend a few weeks ago. She is one of the few slender friends I have. We walked into the local bar.... as I nervously looked around and fiddled with my wedding band she looked at me and laughed. I said what is so funny. She replied, "I know what you are thinking." What? Ya you think they are looking at you because you think you are the largest woman in the bar. I smiled and said how did you know. She laughed again. They are not looking at you like that... they don't know who you are. You have lost over 100 pounds and you do not look like the same woman. You are one of the smaller woman in the bar. I looked around and she was right. The lightbulb went off! Now I think I am normal most of the time.

:thumbup:I hit my goal a few weeks ago. Shortly afterward I couldn't keep my food down. I droped 8 more pounds after that. I was feeling faint and light headed alll the time. I thought I could tough it out. I was just thinking it was me, that I was being overly sensitive. Monday I made an appointment and they got me in right away. Doc took out half my fluid in my band. Boy do I feel like a new person. He told me to gain 10 lbs. I about had a heart failure when he said that.... But most of it is water weight. He also said that my body has "struggled for 13 months" to get to my current weight. A month of freedom will be great. It is 3 days later and 4lbs heavier. I am so happy. I still want to gain 4 more lbs. Not hard for me!!! lol it is kinda fun. Then maybe a slight fill.

:thumbup:I hit my goal a few weeks ago. Shortly afterward I couldn't keep my food down. I droped 8 more pounds after that. I was feeling faint and light headed alll the time. I thought I could tough it out. I was just thinking it was me, that I was being overly sensitive. Monday I made an appointment and they got me in right away. Doc took out half my fluid in my band. Boy do I feel like a new person. He told me to gain 10 lbs. I about had a heart failure when he said that.... But most of it is water weight. He also said that my body has "struggled for 13 months" to get to my current weight. A month of freedom will be great. It is 3 days later and 4lbs heavier. I am so happy. I still want to gain 4 more lbs. Not hard for me!!! lol it is kinda fun. Then maybe a slight fill.

I jumped on the scale this morning and saw 150!!! But I started getting dizzy and feeling like I was going to black out. I have felt like crud all day. No energy, no strength or balance.... Any thoughts

:scared2:I guess things are going well because I haven't felt like I need to blog. but today is a day I have feared for a long time. It doesn't have anything to do with the lapband but I feel safe talked here. I have worked side by side with my dad for the last 8 years. I bought his barber shop from him 3 years ago when his health really started failing. He has heart disease, diabetes, no kidney funtion, and I could go on and on. The fact he is still alive is amazing. He is my hero and he is dying before my eyes. His work has been his entire life(other then us). He decided on thursday he can not longer work. I and everyone that knew him knew that he should have quit a long time ago. but he said it would kill him to stop. So today was his last day to work. Now this may sound like a little thing to most people. but a major piece of him just died in front of me today. I am so sad and upset. I know I just need to pull it together but I also needed to cry. I knew it I wrote about it I would cry. So yes I am currently dripping. My heart is breaking for him and myself. Oh shit. I am tired and sad, and going home now.

:scared2:I guess things are going well because I haven't felt like I need to blog. but today is a day I have feared for a long time. It doesn't have anything to do with the lapband but I feel safe talked here. I have worked side by side with my dad for the last 8 years. I bought his barber shop from him 3 years ago when his health really started failing. He has heart disease, diabetes, no kidney funtion, and I could go on and on. The fact he is still alive is amazing. He is my hero and he is dying before my eyes. His work has been his entire life(other then us). He decided on thursday he can not longer work. I and everyone that knew him knew that he should have quit a long time ago. but he said it would kill him to stop. So today was his last day to work. Now this may sound like a little thing to most people. but a major piece of him just died in front of me today. I am so sad and upset. I know I just need to pull it together but I also needed to cry. I knew it I wrote about it I would cry. So yes I am currently dripping. My heart is breaking for him and myself. Oh shit. I am tired and sad, and going home now.

Honestly, taking one day at a time. My blogs will show you I am a little crazy. I have had a lot of hard days. Remembering it is not a race! Obessing will not make it work faster. Follow the rules and workout! There is no "faster way" you have to do what works for your body and is healthy.

It has been a year for me. I had my one year appointment on Monday. He said things were great. The best part of the whole appointment was that he talked with me about how my life had changed. Not the fact that I look different. But the feelings I have had before during and after. We sat and shot the Sh*t for 20 mins. He asked me if I wanted to be in the advertising for the lapband. He has a spread in our local paper and a few papers around the area. I was very flattered but I don't know If it is something I should do.... Any thougtht?

We have our group meeting tonight!!! YAA, It has been a really good few weeks! I am not a scatterbrained!! DOn't get me wrong I still have a lot of times I don't know what I am doing for a second, but it is getting better. I have found the meetings string the weeks together for me. I am seeing the newer people having the same "silly" struggles that I had. The ones where I was mad because someone was nice to me. Even if they had never talked to me before, I seemed to get upset with them. Now I am dealing with people not knowing who I am. lol it is kinds funny.

We have our group meeting tonight!!! YAA, It has been a really good few weeks! I am not a scatterbrained!! DOn't get me wrong I still have a lot of times I don't know what I am doing for a second, but it is getting better. I have found the meetings string the weeks together for me. I am seeing the newer people having the same "silly" struggles that I had. The ones where I was mad because someone was nice to me. Even if they had never talked to me before, I seemed to get upset with them. Now I am dealing with people not knowing who I am. lol it is kinds funny.

Life is a short run, we are in here to make the best out of the time we have. Less weight=more time? What do you want?

It is a hard thing to cover up with out someone thinking you have an eating disorder. Best of Luck in the future