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My Surgery is Scheduled for April 16th. Im nervous excited anxious. I have been in and out of the Kaiser program for over four years now and this is the first time I scheduled a date. I wish I would have just gone through with it then. I cant imagine how the last four years woudl have been. Now is the right time though. We are going to do great!!!

Just booked surgery last week for April 16th. I have been exercising but probably not as much as I should. My hardest thing is chew chew chew. Im getting nervous but excited to see what the future has in store. I got my surgery day bag packed with what I learned on youtube (small pillow and gas-x strips). Everything is ready at home, as in post opdiet supplies for the first week, vitamins, and protein shakes with some sugar free syrups just in case I dont like the flavors I got.

Thank you Mikee! I think I just need to keep hearing it from support people and friends who have experienced it.

I must say I started this journey about four years ago. I started the process for gastric surgery then but ended up losing over 50 lbs on my own and thinking that I could do it all by myself so I dropped out. I then started it again about two years ago and the same thing happened. So I dropped out again. I dont seem to have a problem losing that first 50lbs but keeping it off is the issue. Everytime I gain the weight back I just feel worse. I hurt worse. My joints just are not made to carry this much weight! I have to admit that the first two times I was doing this all for the wrong reasons. Well, at least to for me it was the wrong reasons. I just wanted to be thinner and look better. I wasnt so much focused on the health portion. Now, this last year I have really been working on myself. I have the best self esteem I have had in my adult life. I can look in the mirror and actually like who I am and what I see but the health thing is a concern. I really want to be able to run with my little girl and have no hold ups. That is more important to me and being there for her for life. So, now surgery is finally booked for April 16th and Im so nervous. I dont want to lose the new self esteem I have gained and not like what I see in the mirror! I know that it may just give me more self esteem but the fear of the opposite is consuming me. Is this normal to have so much doubt after your surgery is finally booked!?!?!