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still thinking of all of this, its hard to get it off my mind. my daughter is upset with me bc she says that im jinking him thinking of it all the time. but idk what else to do I have to figure this out and be ready I cant leave it for last minute, I have no one to help me out. am I doing the right thing ?

jatherley, oh yea the opening and closing of the grave site, didn't think of that omg more things to worry about. my mom didn't get anything for ssi idk why but they didn't give her anything for her funeral. that's is why im also trying to do gofundme its a site for ppl to donate to. hope it helps me out.

Thank u Debbie H. for the donation u made on my gofundme site. Blessings.

im going to write those question down, thanks

I do have to think of myself, I think about this everyday and don't know what to do, its getting me very nervous not knowing what to do, Im going to write things down that I have to ask and then call funeral homes. I got a 50 donation on the site I posted on hope its for real and will help me out, its called gofundme

Update: the gofundme site, thank you Debbie H. for ur donation. Blessings. Thank you for the donation. http://www.gofundme.com/a8i34g Update: Dad had his surgery two wks ago, went good, he lost weight but hope he gain it back, today was his first visit after surgery, how is now on stage five so he can eat more diff foods but just have to eat a little and slow to make sure it don't hurt his stomach. He says he still feel a little pain but that he knows he will get better, me on the other hand is having a hard time, im so worried about him he is so thin and in age. Im thinking of the future and if the cancer return, im planning for his funeral I know its not a good thing but its life and im the only one he has so I have to try and find out how to save money, I don't know how much one will cost. and I have no one to be pall-bearer so I was told that its 100 for each pallbearer that the funeral home uses. I have to find out how much a funeral will go for and try to do what I can to start saving money, he is on ssi and I heard they only pay like 200. I have posted a few stuff on craigslist and went on a donation fund site where ppl can donate to. I just hope it will help. I hate thinking of him going, it will be three yrs on the 21st that my mom passes away. and I also have a homeless nephew that I have to take care of when he is around and I promised my mom I will bury him too when the time comes bc he has no one just me. its hard on only one person but I have to do it. my son sold some of his games and donated it to me, I put it in an envelope for dad. it was $25 but he is so proud of himself. he is a good kid, now he is looking for a summer job to help me out. and im looking for anything I can sell. anyway I just wanted u all to know how my dad is doing, I will keep u updated. Blessings what would u ask at a funeral home, -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------At four pm I got the call that my dad has stomach cancer, the dr. wants to see him Friday for more test to see how advance it is. idk wat to do my mom and dad have always said they don't want to know if they ever get cancer, they say they will suffer more knowing then not knowing, so Idk wat to do. my mom passes away two yrs ago and he still tlks and misses her a lot. Friday I go with my dad for the other test. I guess ill let the dr. tell him, but im afraid my dad is not strong enough, he has gone down hill since my mom passed away two yrs ago. idk what to do, I don't want to go into surgery having him sick, I don't want to miss a minute without seeing him. the dr. said that they have to find out how far out he is and maybe surgery maybe they cant do anything, im just waiting for my insurance to be approved and then the surgery date. he wants me to be healthy and I want to do this so he can see me skinny b4 things happens.

BigGirlPanties, thanks I will check that out.

I can not take the sublingual b12 and the Calcium crystals. u mix it in juice or Water, my second day and it grosses me out so bad, and the sublingual is so nasty under the tongue I don't know what to do . can I just swallow the b12 and get some other form of the calcium ?

2wks check up tomorrow and I still feel so sore and serious heartburn or whatever that pain is btw my breastbone is. I take Pepcid and Prilosec four times a day. I have hurted myself three times bending over and it hurt so much and my left side hurts a lot. like a sharp pressure pain that comes and goes. tomorrow I see the surgeon, nut and diabetes dr. oh yea and my sugars been so high over 200 since leaving the hospt I haven't been on any diabetes meds I was taken off them at the hospital but they are high sugars. lets see what I be told tomorrow. haven't been able to have all my liquids and Protein bc I get the heartburn when I drink or eat anything, im on liquid only. wonder if I lost anything, my jeans still feel the same on the waist. ill let your all know. Blessing to all.

I am going to search now, and only when I woke up it was a diff taste in my mouth. Thank you.

don't know if I should call the dr.

PdxMan, thanks il look it up. Kelly Gonzalez LOL ur a mess. (newphew frying up chicken for him and my son,)

been 8 days since my surgery and my 15yr old keeps telling me I smell weird, I shower and brush my teeth, twice a day but he still stay it smell different. what can It be ? ps. even my cat be smelling my stomach and tried to lick it. eewww

me too want some turkey club sub, and every food I see. why is that aarrggggg

aarrggg nephew and son eating a turkey club sub omg I want some, lol had surgery wed, been feeling only a little pain, haven't taken pain meds. but oh wow the though of food is on my mind 24/7. I just came in my room bc my son and nephew are eating sub,chips, soda. I had had a shake, jello, and crystal light and I feel hungry but don't know if I am hungry or is it just my mind hunger.

so far today. 8:25 to 8:40 carnation instant Breakfast 8oz 9:27 prisolec 9:27 crystal light 16 oz still have some left, then took two Prozac. 10:54 6oz Jello still have some left and its 11:12am

I have my 15 yr old at home, he don't help much so im on my own. im in a little pain but haven't taken anything for it, trying not to unless I really need it. hurts to cough so true, im just confused with the eating and drinking thirty min separate thing. so I had a shake at 8:40 now have to wait 30 min to have a drink, im so thirsty. still feel I can eat anything but I remind myself that no way I cant do that. '' the food, drink list I need to work on

I came home today and im in a little pain, didn't get to get my prescriptions hope it don't get stronger tonight. didn't get weight at the hosp so im going with what I was at my last nut appt. I cant walk straight but im trying to walk as much as I can. I was taken off three diabetes meds for now till I get recheck next month just have to take my finger stick. also took me off Zocor and still on the rest of my meds for now she said, and she gave me 5 prescription and then after my next check up I can start the Vitamins, by then I hope to be off more of my health meds. How is everyone doing.

never got the call idk why. I forgot to sip just gulp some crystal light down omg. hope I don't b in pain I have no pain meds, didn't take my prescription in today, have to tomorrow.

thank you everyone, all went well im in a little pain, but so far so good.

5:15am and ready to go, I hope I was cleared. will let u all know as soon as I can. Thank you all. Blessings to all

insurance is approved, im waiting for the ultrasound of my heart to be cleared,

I don't know show I still show up tomorrow and just let them know that I haven't heard if I was cleared but I just came anyways. im so messed up I don't know what to do.

arrrggg I just called the office and its closed, now what. I have a number to call tonight so I can know what time to b at the hospital tomorrow Im going to call that number and find out if they know anything. how can I not gotten that call im so nervous. ***I called the number but I was told that all they know that I have surgery for 7:30am but they don't know if I was cleared that I have to tlk to my nurse. now what ?

im still waiting to be cleared, haven't heard anything yet, and surgery is tomorrow Wednesday. and im starving and a huge headache. I will let u know if I make it to surgery or not. pray for me and send good vibes. thank you the nurse said she will call me but its already 4:37pm and no call. I did my ultrasound of my heart on Friday, so still waiting. will update soon.