I know how you feel! I thought I could do it on my own, yea, well, not happening. It's so hard and I finally had to come to terms that I need this and I need it now because I can't live the rest of my life this way. I don't know how and when I lost control of my weight but it happened and now I'm facing reality. I'm anxiously waiting for these 6 months to fly by so I can get surgery. At least I've made the decision to stick to it. Also, BCBS has a ton of different groups with different clauses. My friend has it and WLS isn't covered at all. My sister has it and hers didn't require any type of supervised diets. Just depends on what your employer purchases.