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i lost friends because of weightloss. A lot were against it said I was stupid etc. others who see me now assume I'm a drug addict or I figured out bulemia (i laugh hysterically at the assumptions) I had a good friend who was my surgery buddy and she just couldn't quiet get the diet down and never lost as much as me and got hateful and nasty towards me. It's so funny you spend ur life being judged for being fat and suddenly when ur thin your also judged. I realized a few years ago ppl are gonna hate on me til I die and its nothing I can change so why should I care. hold ur head up and just nod and grin and laugh on the inside...ur driving the karma bus now babe enjoy it. lol .

My new birthday is May 8, 2008. I came here to wish all you newbies a good luck and safe journey on your new birthday. Mine was life changing and yours will be too. Hang in there and reach out when u need help. (((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Oh and last but not least.. KEEP telling yourself THIS TOO WILL PASS! Before you know it this will be a distant memory. Hang in there.. pm me if ya need to vent.

broth decaf unsweet tea italian ice I strained a lot of soups and still got the flavor. not sure if u can have yogurt but smoothies are good just watch ur sugars carbs etc. . . and if u haven't tried milk go slow bc I instantly developed a lactose intolerance to it and sat on the toilet for nearly 8 hours.. i so wish I were joking. Also, watch movies from dvd and not tv.. food porn can kill u..

I'm a little further out than y'all, but one thing I've used as a big tool with me is music. I've got into music I never in my wildest dreams thought I would. Since my mother passed I do a lot of speaking about organ donation and I've become involved in that. I also enjoy cooking a lot more than I use too because it doesn't hurt my feet to stand like it use too so I really go crazy in there.

your looking really really good keep it up!!!! Lots of love

Honey I'm there with you. Mines been like this for two weeks now. It's agonizing to barely get a sip in. . . hopefully it will end for us both SOON.

I really don't know how much longer I can live in severe pain like this. Got up this morning and tried to drink got down my protein smoothy but the pain has literally not lifted at all. I have hit such a bad point I'm now drinking wine to make it stop. I have neither quality or quantity of life left. Searched down Walgreens to see what script I have I could possibly get filled out of pocket and I have nothing. I have an appt tomorrow, but I'm not sure how its gonna go. If I didn't have children and an amazing guy holding me up y'all I'd give up and die I'm to that point. This really blows. I can't be admitted because I refuse to make ppl take time off work for me yet again. I feel like a burden on my boyfriends family(bc that's all I have now) and really sit and wonder when is my boyfriend going to say to hell with this shit and walk off. He's so terrified he's left work and drove home in the middle of the night to make sure I'm still breathing. I can't imagine the fear he has. I wanted a life from this surgery I didn't expect to make such a bad deal with the devil when I got on that table... really bad day. Whats sad is its beautiful out and I'm yet again on the couch. Seriously how much more can a human being take before they give up?

Im a May 2008 rny patient. It doesn't seem like five years has passed from that day. You will soon join the rest of us and before u know it be celebrating ur five years also. Good luck to u n June!

I will be thinking bout ya. I hope all comes out well and u recover quick. Are you on a detox diet right now or are u allowed to eat? I was allowed to eat before and I had last supper syndrome baddddd

My boyfriend loves Mumford its been on repeat.

I'm in Columbia. I can travel if needed just let me know.

I'm terrified of another hospitlization. I've been drinking yogurt smoothies with 10g p per bottle to keep me going but really it hurts like hell. I never thought I'd dread setting down to eat. I've been awake two hours and the pain is creeping in. This is starting to become unbearable. Daily agonizing pain like this is horrible seriously like I've said before I understand why suicide is so high with post op gb patients. I hope we all can get rid of this and move on with the life we dreamed of having. Lots of love to yall.

Oh Lord. I hope its something mild for u and for me oh goodness. Please let me know how ur doing sounds like we r n the same boat.

Oh yeah I know just bout all her songs. You know what got me through divorce and rny?? Eminems recovery CD. . .seriously I joke but say best therapy ever bought for $13.00 lol.

Til just now I thought I had seen and heard it all. I stand corrected. O.o lol. . . I became a horn dog after surgery lol my bf bless his heart said I was gonna kill him. I screamed your a marine damnit man up! Lmao..true story. :-"

I ran into this when I separated and filed for divorce. I was like you rationing portions. Where I felt no hunger I gave to my kids. We made it though and so will u mama.

I've been where u are. I got fed up! My ex husband was in the army. He was a good soldier blah blah but cheated every sec of every day! I made me a plan. I said by God been a wife long enough gonna get this straight. Had my surgery had them fix my deviated septum and like three mos outta surgery served him. I laugh at the fact he treated me so poorly and when I walk up to them their friends give me a what the hell why he dump u and marry her bc yall gag seriously. If u want out do it. You can. If I can flee in the middle of the night w three kids have no damn clue what I was doing and be here today baby so can you. There's a good man put there and I'm sure would be happy to thankful to have someone like u. . .how do I know?? Bc I found one. If u wanna chat privately feel free I can tell ya more about my situation. Lots of love.

What song defines you the most?? Music is a vice for me. I was just thinking and thought I'd ask. Curious to know..

Me too it was hard road tho..

I'm going to ask bc its worth a shot all I can get is a headache ya know

I ached and twinged every now and then. I had a bottle of liquid roxycet that is take and it helped a lot. A lot of mine came from trying to do the vitamins protein etc and thru trial and error found sensitivites which caused dry heeves and then that caused pain. Hopefully its nothing serious and your just a slow healer.

You are doing amazing!! Hang in there ur in for the ride of ur life.

Awesome!!! Its donate life month I love this month. To be honest I don't regret it bc that path led me to my life now. My life now is full of happiness and its not due to my size its based on the fact I grew a backbone and wouldn't let myself settle for less than what I deserve. GB changed my life in a lot of ways. When its bad its bad like icu bad. When its good its amazing. Rny journey not only removes the morbidities it also removes the toxins in your life or opens your eyes to them. I say its the harshest reality check you will ever have. What scares me is getting sick and there be no remedy costing my kids their life with a mom. . .that's terrifying. While that thought is there I say to myself if that does happen its no ones fault but mine i died from electing a surgery and making my children orphans. That's hard to deal with its almost a constant battle of weighing pros-cons. So to answer ur question if I don't die from this and I love to see my grandkids birth yes I'd do it again...if not I hurt and abandon my kids forever and that would be a yes I regret it. Double edge there....kinda stinks.

Thanks yall I truly hope so.