My boyfriend wants to try new positions...namely me on top. I'm really scared and I'm not sure why. I know before surgery any time he asked I couldn't do it and would sometimes end up in tears because of it. Nothing to do wit him, just my insecurity because I was so big. Now that I've lost 100 pounds he is asking again. You would think I'd be all about trying it, but I get the same insecurity and tears as before. I feel like a damn fool. Logically I know I weigh 100 lbs less than before and I weigh less than him now, so I don't know why the insecurity over this hasn't gone away.