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*First is my MAJOR scale victory, I am 100lbs down as of Sunday. Hw 290, Sw 282, Cw 190 from a size 20/22 to a size 8/10. Shoe from size 9W to an 8 regular. *I no longer snore at all, which is big for me since it recently started and was so loud and disruptive to both my family and I. Now, nothing at all, they say im so silent they wonder if im breathing. I sleep so much better and more comfortably. *Also, the late night cravings have gone away and I never wake up at night anymore so no more late night snacking. *I no longer have pain from my Fibromyalgia and have stopped my medications completely!!!! I hate meds!! ******Sad to say that I have had serious negative responses to "MY LIFE" decision, here are some of the daggers in my heart... -I've had family tell me, I didn't need the surgery, I was pretty enough even though I was "BIG"! As if I am so vein that I would do something so serious to my body just to look good...smh -I was told, "I don't like this on u, it's not YOU, you're not meant to be this small"...SMH Then, "I could never make myself sick every day just to look good". WAH? Who's that, I'm not sick at all...uneducated speakers make me wanna vomit if that's what u mean...UGH. -another family member, "don't lose no more, we have enough crackheads out here, wouldn't want people to get the wrong idea". WTF??? THEN THE ABSOLUTE WORST OF ALL..... -My husband threw me a big party when I hit my first goal of 200lbs. I invited all my favorite girls to a Glam Session to do makeovers and a photo shoot (my first pics public photos other than on BP) as a girls night but also as a celebration of my successes since at that time, I had also gotten a raise at work (Which is also suspect), a new luxury apt and a new car. I struggled over 2 years to gain these things from a 1 bedroom box apartment and no car to the new life that my hard work paid for. Do you know one friend was heard saying, "Why she gotta show off, now she think she something special because she lost weight, who's gonna shrink her head?" This hurt me the most because my husband offered me anything I wanted to Celebrate and all I asked is that he treat me and my girls, 17 of us to catered food from Carrabbas (My Fav), dj for the room, make up sessions with Mary Kay, we had a pure romance presentation, a man that was selling jewelry to enhance our look and a photographer to document the whole evening and take personal photo shoots as well, all this at no cost to them and this man made that happen just to celebrate me and my accomplishments and I was extremely thankful beyond belief but also so hurt by not only the person making the comment but the 4 that entertained her, 2 by saying, "that's alright, when she fall, she gonna fall hard" "she got a new 2014 car but just asked me for $60 bucks just last week, she's a phony" -this was when I lost my bank card and had to wait for another and she was with me so I asked her instead of calling my husband. Lesson learned! Basically I learned that people are not always who you think they are. Thank God I did what I did for me and not to impress anyone or seeking anyone's approval. I am happy with my decision and since I've noticed that ppl seem to be down for you as long as you stay down in life...on their level perhaps but the minute you move up, now your not good enough for them. I have since been uninvited to 4 events and the excuse was, " Oh I thought You'd be busy or traveling" REALLY? I was suppose to be celebrating but I literally cried for 3 days. Beyond the gains (materials) and the losses(weight), I thought I had support. I learned an ugly lesson that day and here's some I wish to pass on... Make your moves for YOU!, Seek only approval from YOU! Make sure you have a true support system. Then my daughter sent me a comment picture that reads,"Don't dim your light simply because it's shining in their eyes" That's for you too. Be positive and don't let the haters tear you down. I don't have a positive relationship with my family, been on my own since 16, so these women have always been around but now that I can't even share my life losses or gains with them...my husband is taking me away from it all, no more pain, no more tears, no more haters, we are moving to California, his home town and I will make new friends and hope and pray to share a good life together. He even says we will renew our vows so I can get a new dress vs the size 26 I had to wear in Jamaica. After 18 years, we will renew our vows in Santa Monica!!! Haven't told any of them yet but I bet they act like they care... but they probably don't and who cares, I'm over it!! It will be a last minute goodbye and an AWESOME 2015!!!! I am happy and I will continue to be, I could have uplifted others but I will reach out to the real ones and help bring them up and we can pray together for those too busy hating on others to ever come up in life!! Good riddance to em'... Love you guys, needed to get that out!! Thanks, whew!

I do it for you!! I use to be YOU and I can't wait FOR you.......until it's your turn to inspire another, still feels great!! Good luck!! You're in the right place...I love my fellow sleevers!!!

Yes girrrrrrl, talk to it and let it show you love too....lol!!

Yes, ON MY SCALE! I started to notice that I give my scale foreplay when I walk in the bathroom, my husband always says "are u really?!?!?!?" But yes, I begin to say things like, I know you're goin to love me today, please be nothing but good to me, show me nothing but love, go ahead, give it to me, I can take it, then I close my eyes and get on and OMG, let it be .5 less and I have all the sweetest accolades and pet names in the world. So yes, after a 3 week stall, I literally picked it up and kissed it this morning, 4lbs down after I thought I pigged out a bit this weekend. I say pigged out, really means since I ate a whole half a chicken sandwich WITH cheese...SHHHH, I felt bloated all day...smh. But lo and behold, it was still Protein and it was still in my benefit, so the scale continued on it's downward spiral!!!! WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOO!!! P.S. That also means, "THIS CHICK" is less than 200lbs for the first time in 17 Years!!!!! GOOO meee, GOOOO uuuuuuuu!!!!!!! Weeeeee doin it together!!!!

Yes, I did but it never showed anything abnormal I believe..

I am doing better, thanks guys. seems the meds worked but my issue is my surgeon's office refused to see me when I went for the follow up. They said, I need a new referral but never told me that when we made this appointment 3 months prior so I was not able to be seen. I feel better tho and I think i'm ready to go back to my doctors in my Kaiser network since the outside providers are so wishy washy.

I just started the Carafate this week but I have also began to sleep in my recliner and haven't had any overnight issues, seems the reflux has even lessened. Could be because I haven't eaten much also. I will keep u posted. Doc says give it a month to see the recovery.

At 4 Months and almost 2 weeks out, down 78 lbs. From 18/20 down to 10/12.

Just some info for severe reflux sufferers. I never knew acid reflux was so dangerous but now after weeks of choking in my sleep on gastric juices, my Dr. Did an endoscopy and found an ulcer and showed me the results of swelling and inflammation in my throat from the reflux. Its bad and if this Carafate doesn't clear it up my next step can be a full gastric bypass. I'm a sleeve pt for a reason...I DO NOT WANT THE BYPASS and now I may not have a choice. I wish I knew ahead of time the terrible results of severe GERD. Do your research!!

When u can literally see it for yourself!!! Size 18/20 down to 10/12. Surgery date: 4/23/14 hw: 290, sw: 282(corrected), cw: 212.

Ok guys back for a quick check in. Glad to see everyone doin so well! Here's my update...Surgery 4/23, weighing 282 and I thought it was 277 but either way, my highest was 290 and fluctuated between 275-285 before surgery with my food funerals. Currently at 218, loss of 72. It has been a slow crawl because of ME, I don't track Protein as much because I'm just trying to eat most days. I don't get in my Water as much either. I miss my Vitamins, Calcium and B12 often, I hate pills!! I thought I could just deal with it but the more normal I felt, the less I took. I never miss the protonix for reflux, I live by those but they don't really work...need something stronger. Please don't do anything mentioned above. I have never felt so weak and sick to my stomach ever! My bones pop and crack and make a me hurt as of recent. Causes me to put off my workouts, I could have lost more as I'm a workout buff but lately, no energy, sore body and sickly tummy are making me go back to basics. Tracking, water, counting, pills and workouts! Lastly my reflux has almost ended my life on numerous occasions. I now get a buildup in my throat that chokes me half to death every night. I wake up choking on Fluid and have to really manipulate my breathing to not choke to death. I have an emergency Upper GI scheduled for tmrw and after that a possible endoscopy. Keep u posted! What's your update?????

When u use to pray to squeeze into a 18 but now you're giving away clothes from 22- 16's. Its a good feeling but frustrating also...gave away 4 full boxes and have 1 box to keep. Need a shopping spree...ASAP!!!

Ohhhh thanks...that must be it. I always forget those..

I guess I'm cheating a bit because I will eat fries if I want but only cause I can only eat about 4-5...so I say splurge but I'm no doc! Lol I notice I have no food restrictions, just portions. I can only eat a lil bit so I get as much Protein as possible with fun foods. I workout and lose consistently these days but I'm only 3 months out and 51 lbs down so we will see what happens....good luck all!

Hey guys, almost 3 months out and down 51 lbs. I love the compliments I get from most but hate when people say I look sick or awww what's happening? I never hide my decision, I'm very proud so I still smile. Its only around 50 pounds, it's not that freaking drastic... Anyway, I officially have 4 boxes of some really great clothes to give away some things were even brought after surgery and yet..they're done! I got a raise at work and a different relationship with my supervisor who is deathly afraid of surgery and calls me survivor! Husband just moved us outta the city and brought a new car....so I'm feeling as good as in looking. My mom's questions of the surgery caused us to mend a long time rift. Thank God she came to the hospital. Overall, I can eat more but it's still very little but more manageable to me, I'm not a stickler for any particular diet or workout but I do both sparingly but I am more physically active then ever and I even run now. Its been a long almost 3 months for me since 4-23....how are u all doing??

Wow, how far out are u?

Yessssss! Nice!!

You should model!!

Did u have any problems getting prego before the surgery?

I miss food as well but notice the thought of eating makes my stomach turn. I force myself everyday and I'd love to just feel normal again. I can literally go days without eating and not care but I felt weakness creep in and started to take shakes again but I gag when I try to eat....it's a process for me...smh. Still getting use to a few things..

That dress is sooo cute...both actually! NICE!

This was 1 week before surgery 280 This is today, 40lbs down @ 237, when I realized I can look down and see legs and not just stomach at my highest 290lbs Today at 237