Nykee

ooohhh like the sig! I am so there.. (been there, doing that..lol

And after that really wonderful post (thank you Mari!) I have to list what I have ate so far today.. I am really tired.. and I been up since 3pm yesterday.. and I am stuffed, so i assume I am DONE... but if not I will edit.. BUt I ate so so much today.. I KNOW its cuz I am getting a fill sooon. Jan 25th 6am cheetos, 1 serving Grape juice, 12 ounces 7am Rice Crispies, 2 servings and milk. 12 ounces 9am tomatoe soup, 2.5 cups 1% milk, 4 ounces parm, 4 tablespoons More grape juice in those times, 16 ounces 11am Breakfast Buretto at Jack in the Box (pulled out most tortilla) 12 ounces OJ 1pm Half box of cheese curds (spit out most of cheese) Small Root beer freeze approx, fit day calories 2451 fat 70 carb 402 Protein 65

thank you so much.. Curious, why did you say that about my kids? (did you see the pics I posted or what??) The things I went through made me a most amazingly good mother (considering what 'could of been' ya know) BUt what made you say that, I am just wondering.

I also have some more questions: What is the average calorie intake the first few months following the proceedure? >>>>>>>>>>>>depends, I could eat the same as before for 4 months and a fill... I lost nothing. How long do I have to wait before I can get back on the eliptical 7 do other cardio? >>>>>>>>>>A few days? how would i know.. whats cardio? How long did everyone wait to go back to work? Most of what I do is at a desk... some occational lifting. Not much though and nothing over say 20 pounds. >>>>>>>>>one day.. What's the worst part of the first few days post-op? I've had two operations on my knees, (ACL) -- OMG! It can't be worse than that can it? Can you get up and walk around? >>>>>>>>you can walk within the first hour <!-- / message --><!-- sig -->

i dont know about gas, what the best me said sounds like my experience

that sounds like my 'no no' feeling.. as soon as I get a tad bit of a hint of this feeling.. I wont eat or drink one more bite.. Its my stop point. WAY before it hurts..

I only had good restrcition for a week after banding....and within 3 weeks I was eating completely normally..i ddint lose any weight for 4 months.. until my second fill,.. so this fill is a good thing.. wait and see what the fill does hang in there

Well.. unless my band fails... I wont get the GB... So maybe in a few years Huh.. lol

I would never be able to hide it.. I would be absolutely mortified if anyone found out and caught me acting like I had done it all on my own when I actually had surgery. What would I do? Lie to everyone who asked me how I lost the weight or noticed and talked to me.. no way. I mean I may not go arounf telling everyone.. but I wouldnt lie.

I am totally doing the same thing.. my band is only at 1.7 right now.. but will i just continue to find more and more ways to eat around it? I always drank alot (not alcohal) and ate crispy junk... I shoulda got the bypass I think

What about dating and drinking? lol

I didnt lose for months either... I lost 41 pre op (FEB) gained 6 (Feb. to June) 4 months NO LOSS.. GAINED alittle.. lost 35 (augest-october) My first time with restriction! gained 7 (october to now) Not restrcited enough or eating around the band

What about dateing?

All I can do is go to aqua aerobics and I have a real cheap membership at the ymca and I have NO excuse what so ever for not going. plus if I go, thats a soak and shower every day.. I really need to go.. I think I should make some kind of committment to do this along with my fill.

Thats really really neat! I am happy for you. But where in the world would one get 25,000$.. I mean obviously you have it, you dont have to tell me.. Thats is just like 5,000 to me.. SIMPLY impossible to ever obtain. I really really hope my insurance will do something.. like a tummy tuck, someone here said they might cuz I have incontinence.. Or I could win the lottery

I need a measuring tool

I always think I am bigger.. EVERytime I insist I am a certian size (comparing it to someone I see on tv or in life) everyone says "NO YOU ARE NOT" and they mean it, sometimes I have learned these people are 500 or 550 pounds and so I dont know why I think I look that big.. But really, whats the diff between 415 and 515? lol I mean alot to me... but to the outside world I am sure we look the same.

So, I found out what a NSV was.. and its cool.. But lately I was wondering.. How far can that go? I mean, where something is happening to your body most definately but your just not losing any weight on the scale. I have been stuck around 350 pounsa.. for Months. I dont measure anything. But its UNDENYABLE that my body is changing. (I am single, I date and I just know.. ok) When I lost the bulk of my weight, I noticed some things.. But since then, since I stopped loosing, its been changing even more. So, Can this mean that My Hanging Flab weighs alot in itself.. OR I gained some muscle (I dont see how, I am not active) OR I am retaining Water (I have never retained water in my life and have no symptoms of it) I DONT KNOW.. Does the fat Keep drooping and changing with gravity, even though I lost the bulk of the weight months ago? I am kinda hopeing I am NOT stalled at 350 pounds and I am still having productive changes and that counts for something.. My right arm is so much smaller and the fat is collecting (or flab??) at the armpit area. My stomach used to have ONE problem area. I mean an area that I had to wipe with a baby wipe to keep clean ( I would do this every time I went potty) .. this is a non private area.. just an area suseptiple to uncleaness cuz it was so flabbish.. Once in a while it got a rash (it could be cleaned and soaked and gone in 24 hours) NOW.. my stomach has FIVE of those areas..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All my steachmarks are turning wrinkly.. I exspected that to happen.. BUT NOT when I am not loosing any weight.. At this point I have only lost about 65 pounds and I have lost 50 and 40 pounds many many times.. and NONE of this ever happened!!!! Sorry if this gets gross.. I find it very gross too. Then my leg.. the inner thigh.. it has this big dent in it.. It looks very nasty when I lift it to shave my legs.. I mean it ALWAYS looked nasty.. But this dent thing is Crazy.. AND all the pores in that area.. the inner thigh area are like wrinked and hold (or seem to hold) MANY MANY more pores.. I mean its all bunched together and No matter what i do, I cant stand to feel it... Its like I need a MASSIVE exfoliation that I never felt I needed before... HOw can you exfolite skin that isnt taught (without help, at my size) Ok... SO I had my first discusting.. LIKE serious BEd sore/ rash?? episode. I took pictures it was so bad. It appeared one day OVERnight, NO kidding.. It only took 2 days to get rid of, but none the less I was freaked OUT!!!! I am going to bring the pics to my doctor to show him. I guess I want a record if my body is gonna start doing this. Sooooooooo I brought up two issues here... sorry.. I am getting very scared.. I havent lost much weight and my body is INSANE changing and flabbing out and NEW to me and causing pores and rashes and seems like if I lose 50 more pounds I would have so bathe 4 times a day to keep clean,. lol anyway. thanks for listning I love you guys

I dont like fat people. I mean I dont like to look or touch them... It bothers me.. I cant look and touch myself and any time a date was even 25 pounds over the norm, it wasnt 'fun' to touch them. My sister is fat, my mom is fat, I love them.. my kids have gotton chubby and I loved them but I looked at them in discust (I really tried not to show it) I am sorry i feel this way. I mean its not as bad as I describe it above I guess... I have looked at pictures of people here and I dont think "op gross" or anything like that.. I am as gross as they come.. and while I do get made up to go out socially.. (dates, friends) I do not to go run erronds or such and MNAY MANY times I am that fat discusting unkept ugly discusting eyesore.. I make sure I match, my fat is contained in clothes and I dont smell and thats about it.. as far as always.. I just feel so fat and nasty and so why bother? and when i do get made up, I feel like a joke anyway. I am not saying I think I am right to feel this way.. I am not. And its not that I dont have compassion.. I DO, I SO DO!!!! I just dont like looking at it.. its been the bain of my existance, so I try not to feel too guilty.. Oh plus, anyone who tells me they dont judge,.. I DONT beelive and when they proove it.. I think they are just crazy. But reading through here,. I really should beleive them.,. everyone isnt a shallow witch about fat like me..

I told this to someone else the other day and they said I was ful of crap, so i wanna post it here... thank you (I already posted here, this is just one point of many) I had all the food I wanted all my life (not healthy either) untill I was 12, From 12 to 16 I struggled in these kinds of ways: (parents divorced, mom became a crack head) Sometimes our only meal was at school, once we missed the bus and walked like 10 miles to school in time for lunch. We lived in a condemed house for 4 to 6 months??? (in secret with no electricity) and I remember having ONE meal there, (besides school) it was one pan of stewed tomatoes for one adult and 4 people.. IT tasted so good, I thought I would die of pleasure. There was this mint Jelly there too.. a tiny jar and I put my finger in it for a tiny taste as to not show I had got into it. One time, (totally different place).. All we had was a turkey and a jar of grape jelly for the longest time and I was not enrolled in school.. I cut a chunk of uncooked turkey and microwaved it until it turned white instead of pink.. then I ate it with grape jelly. I always took small peices affraid I would waste it.. THEN it got to smelling so bad my mom threw it out one day like it was no big deal.. and I enrolled in school just to eat. I began to shoplift food in that next summer from little stores.. Sometimes I worked at a hotdog stand and I got food from him. (a phedifile, I was 14 here) But when I didnt get food cuz it rained (coastal town) and the stand wasnt open or some other slut took over the job for a few days or week.. Then I began to shoplift junk food. Then my best friend began to shrival away. She was a runaway (as I was, egven though we were at my moms) and I didnt know what was wrong with her, but she was going INSANE and I had to get to town and get her food or get it from perverts in my neighborhood anyway I could,.. this lasted a month till she passed out and went to ER and I never saw her again. (well I did once a few years later) She had some problem where she needs like 4000 calories a day just to maintain her 100 pounds.. and no one ever knew it till she ran a way and didnt get enough food.. I always felt extreme guilt over this.. I was her everything.. Later.. I got to live with my dad and even though he WASNT a crack head, he didnt have the money to feed us and did all he could but just didnt realize it wasnt enough I guess.. I would walk llike 12 miles to the nearest store and shoplift a huge peice of chocolate and eeat it all.. These times I shoplifted the junk foods, I thought they were GOLD.. I never knew it was the meat and cheese that was the Good stuff. lol WHEn I ate this junk It was SWEET salvation.,.. and I think I am stilll stuck on that feeling although I can eat anything I want. I dont think thats crap.. I think thats good food disorders in the making.

CAULIFLOWER!!!! it works for meatloaf (and extra egg)

salad and crutons with crab like all the time.. (I cant eat salad now, its the strangest thing), speggetti, yogart, sherbert, jello, candies, popcycles, meatloaf and mashed potatoes, cheese curds and rootbeer floats..

This is my plan or goal for tomarrow.. Finish the cheetos.. one serving left 4 Cookies max Fininsh the tomatoe soup (about 2 cups) make the lasnague in the freezer and eat it with some vegtable medley also in the freezer. Milk and grape juice of course.. Good luck to myself.

Jan. 24 4AM Last night before I went to sleep I had two Cookies with no milk. They gave me the weird feeling for about 5 minutes (no extra saliva or slime) and One hiccup and it was gone.. So, NO.. If I had tried to have milk and cookies last night it wouldnt have worked. So that solved that experiment.. I am including those two cookies in my FITday calculations for today. 3pm.... one drink of grape juice 6pm.....1/3 cup tomatoe Soup, 3 ounce 1% milk. 9:30....1 cup tomatoe soup, 2 tbs parm cheese, 9 ounces milk later 8 cookies.. Peanut Butter, safeway select. (no milk) 3 cups grape juice. Cheetos.. about one and half servings (45 cheetos) 1/2 cup strawberry ice cream 1/2 cup maple nut ice cream 2 cookies, 1 cup 1% milk. calories: 2751 fat: 118 carb: 366 Protein 74 THIS WAS A REALLY REALLY BAD DAY FOR ME. I just pigged out.. I hate to admit how I eat.. but OH well I REALLY DO plan to do alot better after my fill!!

Nykee, I know you've heard this before but I'm going to say it again. PLEASE try to get more Protein in! >>>>>Milk has 10 grams per cup.. I get 40 to 60 to 80 in at least a day. Do you like cheese? Instead of crap try eating cheese, cold cuts, yogurt, Beans, decent food. >>>>>>I do try, beleive it or not.. I can't imagine what your nutrition levels are like with what you say you're eating, and that probably has a lot to do with your lack of energy and inability to sleep normally. >>>>>Your right of course. I dont know, I have always ate badly. Why do you think you need a fill? If you're restricted so much that you literally cannot eat until evening, you do not need a fill. >>>>>>>I lost 30 pounds with my good fill last time and NOTHING since It loosed up thats why. What you do need to do is get a decent assortment of food in your house so you will start giving your body what it needs to heal and improve. >>>>>>>I buy the right stuff EACh and every month.. I DO.. but theres always a little store on the corner full of crap. Designing a liquid diet for after a "nice, tight fill" just defeats what the band is all about. >>>Well, Its what has worked for me and I am terrifired of it not working for me... This is said with all the respect and affection I have, seriously, I know you can get control if you want to. >>>>>>I know it is.. and I Do appreciate it.. I am sorry I dont havet he answers you like.. (or anyone would like) and I am defensive.. I want to be honest here and have this place for my journey and I know I am not doing the right thing... You've come so far already and now it's time to get smarter about this process. >>>>>>>>I only lost weight during drastic measures and all I care about it is losing weight any way i can..(right now its all I can find the way to do) Don't get a fill--change your shopping list. >>>>>>>>Oh.. I wish it were so simple.. SOMEDAY.. (I hope)