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I didnt see any other thread for this.. so I did this one. I was banded last year on Feb. 15th and I think I am gonna clock in at 75 pounds loss for the year.. (IF I am lucky) I wanted 100 pounds loss.. But I think 75 is good enough.

nevermind.. i didnt see the '06

This is a really nice Journal.. Great Job!

I found two long lost videos of my son and my boy on the internet. I am so happy about that. Now I got to find the ones of cry and amb.. I write this incase this is the brightest point of my day. Havent done much thinking yet, cept of food .... it is almost 3pm and I am not open yet.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr ME want JUICE!! From fitday: Current Weight Your weight is 345 lb as of 02/05/2006. Weight Goal Your goal is to weigh 315 lb by 02/14/2006 Goal Progress You are currently 30 lb above the target weight. The deadline for your goal is 9 days (1 weeks, 2 days) away. To meet your goal you need to lose about 23.33 lb per week. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL GOOD LUCK LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

I found two long lost videos of my son and my boy on the internet. I am so happy about that. Now I got to find the ones of cry and amb.. I write this incase this is the brightest point of my day. Havent done much thinking yet, cept of food .... it is almost 3pm and I am not open yet.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr ME want JUICE!! From fitday: Current Weight Your weight is 345 lb as of 02/05/2006. Weight Goal Your goal is to weigh 315 lb by 02/14/2006 Goal Progress You are currently 30 lb above the target weight. The deadline for your goal is 9 days (1 weeks, 2 days) away. To meet your goal you need to lose about 23.33 lb per week. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL GOOD LUCK LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL

I get what you describe and I dont think they are dangerous..

Yes I did it too.. I made a will of sorts as well and I took my kids to the zoo and bought them suvineers... all while in my mind I was thinking 'what if i die" and I owed it to them something

My fill doc can feel my port and access it immediately without flouro.. Its a good thing

I was poked like 10 times once.... But lately its like one poke and we got it.. My fill doctor can find/ feel my port BUt no matter how hard I try, I cant feel a thing. and once I was poked several times with a spinal needle (ER was trying to get my fill out as I was choking on my saliva and they never did it before) None of it reeally hurts all that much to me.

I want a work at home Job and cant find a way to get connected to that.. All my searching on the internet doesnt seem reliable.. Like medical transcription.. I could do that.. I have a few friggin degrees

HEy, we are practically twins.. lol

NOTHING, NOTHING at all.

Feb. 4th 7am Almonds, 1 serving 12pm- 2pm 3 hard candy 15 cheetos Nesquick with 1% milk. 2 ounces chocolate chips 1 cup regular milk 1/2 Cup chocolate peanutbutter icecream 5pm to 6pm One bite of a butterfinger candy bar Middle of a flour tortilla 1 ounces shredded cheese 1 tablespoon sour cream 1 tablesppon salsa 1 ounce chicken One sardine 10 to 1am 2 cups milk 1 serving almonds 2 servings reses peices (my son came in with a bag or I would of made it) Fitday Calories 2254 fat 116 carb 225 Protein 91 I really though I might of done better this day,.,. NOPE

Feburary 4th I got up off my ass and went to the Ymca. I took chase and cry. We played and I worked on my arms for 15 minutes. I sat in the Hot tub twice. They got a treat afterwards, and I took one bite of a candy bar and I didnt go to the store for any reses or cheetos.. It was hard. I also thought about getting that spinach cheese dip from Applebees and I didnt do that either, even though we drove right by it. I am bored. I wish I went to the coast. But i went last weekend and I have a weekend date this coming weekend.. and so I think I should of stayed home and I am BORED off my ass.. Prolly take some valium and go to bed. (at leaste my food intake will end around 1000 calories today IF I do) I am freezing. The electric Bill was 270$ something and Heat is a thing of the past.. NOt really, but it should be! I dont know how I am going to pay these bills. I want candy.

Feburary 4th I got up off my ass and went to the Ymca. I took chase and cry. We played and I worked on my arms for 15 minutes. I sat in the Hot tub twice. They got a treat afterwards, and I took one bite of a candy bar and I didnt go to the store for any reses or cheetos.. It was hard. I also thought about getting that spinach cheese dip from Applebees and I didnt do that either, even though we drove right by it. I am bored. I wish I went to the coast. But i went last weekend and I have a weekend date this coming weekend.. and so I think I should of stayed home and I am BORED off my ass.. Prolly take some valium and go to bed. (at leaste my food intake will end around 1000 calories today IF I do) I am freezing. The electric Bill was 270$ something and Heat is a thing of the past.. NOt really, but it should be! I dont know how I am going to pay these bills. I want candy.

ok but I am still confused.. good luck of course, I hope you get everything you want!!

I went on prozac (same as Zoloft pretty much) when I was litterally going crazy with post partum depression/psychosis.. I was 19.. I was on it for 6 months and it changed the very person I was. I cant even imagine going on the way I was.. I have always said I would do a commercial for Prozac.. I would Marry it too. I hear so many good things about Zoloft.. Maybe I should get some.. YA never know, it could only help.. right? Good LUCK and best wishes!!

So, we had her Birthday Party. All of us and my sister, neice and her new man. Plus Ashlee's friend. It went better than I could of ever hoped for. She was totally surprised by her ID bracelet and very happy to have it and beemed expressions of feeling lucky and special. That was my intent. She loved her Roses as she has never had any before and we are not a flower or jewlry kind of family. The dinner went well at Applebee's, I had tomatoe soup and some Spinach dip and got alittle choked up but it subsided. Everyone else had HUGE and delicious meals. Sure would be nice to eat like that again.. NOT!!! My sister went and paid the bill, The TURKEY. I tried to pay and it was already paid. THE SNEAK. I called her and she said "thanks for doing my taxes" OH BROTHER, it took me all of 5 minutes to do those taxes. But she did get a hefty refund.. So, HEY, Now I can pay the water bill!! Ashlee then took off for the coast. She is staying in a motel with a HUGE jacuzzi hot tub in the room (this is a 99$ deal in Lincoln City we are fortunate to get in the winter months) With her boyfriend.. I KNOW I KNOW.. that sounds terrible.. But they been dating for 4 years and well I had to get over that a long time ago. I wonder what the first "I am an adult" thing she will try to pull on me??

So, we had her Birthday Party. All of us and my sister, neice and her new man. Plus Ashlee's friend. It went better than I could of ever hoped for. She was totally surprised by her ID bracelet and very happy to have it and beemed expressions of feeling lucky and special. That was my intent. She loved her Roses as she has never had any before and we are not a flower or jewlry kind of family. The dinner went well at Applebee's, I had tomatoe soup and some Spinach dip and got alittle choked up but it subsided. Everyone else had HUGE and delicious meals. Sure would be nice to eat like that again.. NOT!!! My sister went and paid the bill, The TURKEY. I tried to pay and it was already paid. THE SNEAK. I called her and she said "thanks for doing my taxes" OH BROTHER, it took me all of 5 minutes to do those taxes. But she did get a hefty refund.. So, HEY, Now I can pay the water bill!! Ashlee then took off for the coast. She is staying in a motel with a HUGE jacuzzi hot tub in the room (this is a 99$ deal in Lincoln City we are fortunate to get in the winter months) With her boyfriend.. I KNOW I KNOW.. that sounds terrible.. But they been dating for 4 years and well I had to get over that a long time ago. I wonder what the first "I am an adult" thing she will try to pull on me??

I have received a certified letter from a doctor kicking me out of care.. And I deserved it.. It had nothing to do with the band or weight (or drugs) It was because I wouldnt take care of myself, I hated going to the doctors, I didnt take my meds and I always hid everyting.... I would break my foot and be black and blue for months and never go to the doctor.. I wouldnt take my pain pills and gave my self injuries by doing too much when I was told to stay in bed.. blah blah blah.. I was totally unrealiistic back then and didnt see it one bit. This was years ago and I am a goooooood patient now. I know how to listen and heal myself VS, abuse myself.

I tried to read all this over and over to see what I was missing. what I see, is someone who lost like 35 pounds and needs to lose another 20 or so.. and thinks she is obese (but obese is 50 pounds or more overweight) I cant imagine have even gotton the band to begin with much less even considered a gastric bypass.. I Would LOVE a BMI of 30. She already got the tummy tuck.. And she is like in panic mode.. I dunno.. I just dont get it..

Oooops, sorry.. I got afterglow and chicken mixed up.. I am sorry..

afterglow, that kind of PB sounds just awfull to me.. What you describes were like emergencies to me.. I had happen twice.. I am no expert, but if thats what your doing like even once a week, than I think its a serious matter.. I know you havent had a fill and you cant get an unfill but it seems you either have to figure out how to stop those kind of PB' or you will lose your band from slippage or Something.. Sorry if I sound harsh, but your description of your PB's really frighten me.

Oh my, I wish I had money. 6 dollars for 1 cup of sugar free chocolate chips.. I am gonna use this site to see if i can find this stuff in regualar stores for cheaper?? thank you

Wow jack, that was a fun read.. very moving. And no I havent went to the doctor, i cancelld on the account I couldnt get out of bed, but I WILL GO SOON. and my symptoms did improve, but I stopped paying alot of attention as I wasnt home and stuff.. I see that for the last two days... My fat and calories and crabs "after fill" havent changed... and I am thinking that It seems I will get that many fat and cal and carbs No matter what I have to do... I am filled nice and tight, I mean it could be better BUT I KNOW I would just wait till MIDNIGHT to eat .. Like I did before.. Seems I really HAVE GOT to TAKE some personal responsibilty that MATTERS!! I go grocery shopping today.. and AGAIN I will try.. LAST month I bought ALL low carb foods... on my major shopping trip and DID NOT utilize any of it, I dont think for even ONE DAY.. I dont even know how to shop today.. I have shopped every way possible and no matter what I do what I want each day anyway. I have four kids, so I have to have some things in the house,.. BUt usually those things dont temp me.. I have Ramen and PB and J and Mac and cheese and corn dogs and cerial.. I DONT eat those things.. What ever.. I am alittle disscouraged right now.. FOr sure.