Hello everyone. Well the surgery date is set, plane tickets purchased, pass port has arrived, the hotel is booked and last but not least I am beginning to have some severe anxiety. I want so much for this to work. As a self payer this is costing a lot, but most of all I am still scared to death of something going wrong. Or that my weight loss won't be as successful as some of you. Please don't get me wrong I am so grateful to be able to do this, but so many things have gone wrong in my life that its hard to think positive. For once I am really doing something for me and I just pray to God it's of his approval and that he won't let anything go wrong.