coyotegirl

No I didn't write it, I just found it on another wls site. I wish I could write like that!

This is a Poem I found on another wls site! So many nights, I whimpered and cried, Thought that my prayers had all been denied. Stuffing my feelings, ashamed of my plight, Trying to stop, with all of my might. Shoving in cold spaghetti, at three in the morning, Frying shrimps by the time the daylight was dawning. Drinking gallons of soda, my heart wildly beating, Hating myself, 'cause I couldn't stop eating. The monster in me would come out to play, And as much as I begged him, he wouldn't go 'way. Morning would come, and that is when, The whole vicious cycle would start once again. Tears would be streaming, I felt like a cow, I wanted to stop, but I didn't know how. Boarding a plane, and seeing the fear In the eyes of the others..." Don't let her sit here!" Walking a block, and feeling such pain, That I went right back home to start eating again. " Your face is so pretty! Start using your head!" "Just eat smaller portions, " my family said. " Put down the fork! Push back from the table!" That's what my friends said...But I wasn't able. " Willpower's the secret! We'll help you get through it!" " TRY HARDER, " they urged...But I couldn't do it. I tried every diet to get back on track, I'd lose weight and then just gain twice as much back! Every morning I'd pray, " God let me be good..." Then I'd fail once again...and no one understood. Each new day would bring another attempt, Each evening would bring still more self-contempt. Filled with self-loathing, such awful remorse, Simply unable to get back on course. Overwhelmed with this state of awful depression, Giving in to this dark, paralyzing obsession. I thought to myself, " You'll always be fat. Accept it, move on! Learn to live with that fact! " Questioning God and wondering why, Positive that I was destined to die. Yet something inside me was whispering, "No.. There MUST be a way. It HAS to be so." I felt a new person was waiting inside me, And it was her voice, I permitted to guide me. I knew I could no longer go on this way, Desperate and dying, bit by bit, day by day. So I got on my knees, and prayed for relief, Then God sent a miracle to lessen my grief. A way to stop eating, so crazy I thought, Went against everything I had been taught. This was my last option, I felt like a jerk If this didn't do it, then NOTHING would work! So I trusted the doctors, wholly and blindly, And my God smiled down, completely and kindly. An unorthodox treatment, but working so well, To help lift me OUT of this ongoing hell. A surgical wonder, that acts as a tool To battle the fat, which has made life so cruel. So as scared as I was, I knew I'd get through it... Since I was so much more afraid not to do it. And it went very smoothly, and I'm convinced that That pain was less than the pain of this fat. Nothing could hurt more than being this size, While seeing the pity in everyone's eyes. That part of my life is over and done, But I'll never forget the place I come from. I'll always be grateful, I'll always be driven To bestow upon others the support I've been given. The obsession has lifted, I'm whole and I'm free, God and my surgeon gave my life back to me. I've learned to eat slowly, I've learned how to chew Enjoying my food, as normal folks do. I eat when I'm hungry, I stop when I'm not, Being fat, in this life, will not be my lot. I eat not for sport, but just to survive, My whole life is changing...I'm glad I'm alive! I will reach the goal that I'm aiming toward, I've truly been blessed...Thank You, Dear Lord. The peace that I feel is calming and true, And for those who still suffer...I wish it for you.

Have a grrrrrrrrreeeeeeaaaaaaaaaat day!!

Welcome to LBT!! It's a Wonderful place to be to talk about the Wonderful Surgery the Lap-Band!!!

OMG you are ugly!! LOL Very cool costume.

Happy Happy Birthday girl!!

I was on a 2 week liquid only diet. I called it the diet from HELL!! Sugar free drinks like crystal light. I could have 3 cups of ff milk a day and 2 sf fudgesicles. everything else was see through. sf jello, sf clear drinks, sf popsicles, Oh God this was a year ago and I can't remember what else I could have but I know it wasn't much. I thought I was going to die from it but I didn't. I lost 11 lbs that 2 weeks before surgery! Oh yeah, I could have all the broth I wanted.(chicken or beef)

I am on Medicare because of a disability. I had no trouble at all with them paying their 80%. I had my surgery on Nov 19 of 2004.

Welcome to bandland!! It's a great place to be!! Amos, I agree with Crystal, Talk to your Dr. and find out if you should be on soft foods!? I was on liquids for 2 weeks before surgery and 2 weeks after surgery. You don't want to do anything to damage your band or your stomach. As for what we can eat after surgery, Well just about anything that your band will allow, just smaller amounts. For me I can't eat soft breads(well toasted toast is fine if I chew really well), lettuce is a big no no for me but others have no trouble at all with it. You will find out what your band approves of when you are on solids again. Just take it easy and chew, chew, chew!! Good luck

Francesca, I think about you EVERYDAY!! You are in my prayers EVERYNIGHT!!

I thought this was way funny. I think this is what my scale does when it sees me coming! LOL

I would LOVE to meet other AZ Bandsters. But I live up by Show Low a 3 hr drive. Not sure what my schedule will be like in Jan? Keep me up to date on what everyone is doing and I will see whats up!! OH I would love to come!

Wendy Hall Snowflake or Heber or Mesa AZ $75 in Snowflake and Heber and $100 in Mesa. BLIND FILLS ONLY Dr. Robert Berger Flagstaff, AZ don't know price because he has not ever charged me. :mad: UNDER FLOURO

I would like to introduce you to Dorfus ChuckleTush.

November 19th 2004 here!! WHOOOOHOOOO NOVEMBER BANDSTERS ROCK!!!!!!

Pabandgal, some dr.'s use smaller needles. When I get my fill from a local dr, she uses a much smaller needle. With either one I do not feel any pain. Good luck

I think the one in the middle is the cutest! What a doll!

It says I have a Fighting chance. I might survive the first onslaught of the zombie menace. then again, I might not. I got 6 out of 10.

And the last one. I thought this was too funny!!

Here is another one!

here are some Flashers!

I thought these were funny and cute!! Here is Drunk Punpkin!

Have a Happy Halloween Everyone!!

Welcome to LBT!!! Way to go on your weight loss!!!

Francesca, I am so sorry to hear of your problems. I wish you all the best and a speedy recovery from this surgery. You are a very special lady and I know you will succed with your continuing weight loss. You looked Beautiful when I met you in Vegas and you are a BIG insperation to me! Thoughts and Prayes and all the lights of Crystals coming your way! ((((((HUGS)))))))) Your Friend, Terri