JenHill

I'm scheduled to have my surgery in just 3 days and I'm having second thoughts...is this normal? I miss food. I miss eating. I'm worried that after the surgery I will feel unsatisfied with food, that I'll always be wanting to eat more even though my body says no. I'm worried that 1 year from now (or 2 or 4 or hell even 10 years from now) that I'll still feel like I want to eat more.

Good to know, thanks!

I'm hungry too. I just want to eat a sandwich so damn bad! And of coursei just started my period and I haven't had one since high school (I just turned 30 and have severe PCOS) so I don't know if they will do surgery with that. Anyone know?

I'm currently size 26-28 but I've already lost 17 pounds pre-surgery. My surgery is Monday, do I'm Hong to lose more weight shortly after that abs I need some clothes the next size down that would be good for summer in Texas.

I have severe PCOS and haven't had a period since my early teens and I just turned 30. I'm hoping with this surgery I will lose weight and start to cycle, even though the thought of that kind of grosses me out, because I really want to have a baby. I'm hoping the surgery will help make that happen.

I am glad to see that I'm not the only one who was having second thoughts! They called me yesterday with the time I'm suppose to come in, 5:30am, and I was like...okay, I can do this! And I felt better about it after last night when my husband had friends over and they ordered pizza and I made dip and brownies and I wanted to eat it so bad, but I didn't. I'm ready to do this, I just wish my brain would shut up for a little bit!

I definitely don't want to get fat again! I have just read a lot of stories about how after surgery people don't really like food anymore and I'm afraid that will be me. I absolutely love cooking and feeding other people and I'm afraid that I won't after the surgery and I don't know what I will do with my free time. Even this week, while I'm on the liquid diet, I've been cooking for my husband and making meals ahead to freeze so he has stuff to eat while I'm in recovery. I'm ready to tackle this problem, but I think I've just had too much time to think of all the things that could go wrong!

Thank you, all, for talking to me through this. I know I am going through with the surgery and that it will change my life for the better...I feel like I'm just in a funk because of this pre-surgery liquid diet. Today I am feeling very lethargic and I've got a grumbly tummy. I'm waiting on UPS to deliver a new protein shake powder and I'm hoping that helps because I can't keep down the one I got from the doctor's office. I REALLY hope UPS delivers soon!!!

I'm 100% sure that my second thoughts are fear based. I already have so many health problems because of my weight, which is really sad since I have had them for over 6 years now, and I'm only 30! I was told I would be diabetic within 6 months and that I have a low life expectancy if I don't make some changes. And I am fully aware that EVERY ONE of my previous attempts to lose weight have failed and that this is going to be the best option for me...I'm just scared.

I am enjoying the numbers on the scale right now, I've lost 15 pounds since Monday with this pre-surgery liquid diet...but today is hard, I have almost no energy and I feel so hungry for the first time this week. And I have to watch my husband enjoy food while I eat my jello and drink my water. I guess I am just in a sort of funk. It's the "at some point" that I'm not liking...I wish I could just skip to that point now and pass all this liquid and pureed stuff from after the surgery.

You are so close, you can do it! I don't think there should be a schedule...if you are healthy and still losing then that should be the ultimate goal. Like you I was a victim of bullying and self harmed a lot in high school. I'm worried about how I will be after my surgery, emotionally, but I know I am strong and I can do this. Seeing that there are other people out there, like me, who are dealing (and have dealt) with the same circumstances gives me hope for my own future. Thank you for sharing!

I turned 30 on March 29th and I was originally scheduled to have my surgery on March 19th, but I decided I didn't want to spend my 30th birthday in recover so I put it off and now I will have my surgery on April 15th....but I kind of wish I would have just done it at the beginning of March. I've given myself too much time to worry about everything! Plus, by now I would have been out of the liquid diet phase! I'm so hating this pre-surgery liquid diet!

I'm with you, I'm having trouble with the shakes. I get one sip down and I throw it back up almost immediately. The first 3 days of the pre-op liquid diet weren't too bad, but today is the 4th day and I'm feeling hungry and I have no energy. I know I need the protein, but I don't have money to keep buying expensive protein drinks just to turn around and throw them up. My surgery is on Monday and I'm worried how the lack of protein will affect me.

I sometimes think I might regret this (my surgery is Monday) because I really do love eating and I'm afraid that this surgery will change not only how I interact with food, but how I interact with people. But I have to keep telling myself that no matter what I'm feeling (I'm know to be a little emotional), that this surgery is going to save my life. It's going to give me a better chance at growing old with my husband, to travel without having to worry about weight restrictions, and to maybe one day soon have the baby I have so desperately been wanting. I have post-it notes around my house, in places where I frequent, telling me to stay strong and that I can do this.

I definitely feel like you do! So know that you are not alone in your feelings!! I have been overweight my entire life, I remember in middle school having to buy clothes out of the maternity section at stores and the strange looks cashiers would give me and my mom. I cried trying on wedding dresses because the only ones I could find in my size were hideous. It's been a life long struggle and I guess I was just never in the right place, mentally, to do anything about it. But I think I reached a turning point and I'm ready to make this change! I just turned 30 and it really hit me, like you said, that I've wasted so much time being overweight and life is short anyways, I want to be able to enjoy the time I have left. I think it's great that you realize this surgery is a tool, and that with hard work you can lose the 340 pounds you want! Hopefully you'll hear from your insurance soon and they can get you scheduled. Unfortunately I don't have insurance, so I have had to finance my whole procedure, but the up side of that, is that I got pushed through a lot faster. I'm 4 days away from surgery!

I'm with you! I'm having my surgery Monday as well and I'm starting to get nervous. I have no idea what I will be having after the surgery or how much pain I'll be in...I'm having a hard time with my pre-surgery liquid diet as the protein shakes my doctor gave me are absolutely horrible!