sroan05

I'm Shannon...26 and from Columbus, Ohio. I'm currently anxious and in the pre-op stage. I started my journey in Steptember when I attended the bariatrics seminar and afterwards, I knew this was the route for me. I immediatly got the ball rolling and set up my initial consulation to learn my insurance benifets...and that I had to wait 6 WHOLE MONTHS until I could have surgery. I was not pleased with this news and it kinda got me down for a while. As time went on, I embraced my waiting time as I realized the reality of the situation was that this surgery is NOT a quick fix, but yet a tool to help me reach my weight loss goal. I have gone to see my dietitian every month, as scheduled. I keep my food record (or at least try to.) And I attempt to find the energy and motivation to get off my butt and walk around my neighborhood (which doesn't always work, seeing it's winter..and I'm in Ohio.) I have taken this time to try to learn new, heathier eating habits.

I often have bad days, when I'm REALLY down...and I feel like having to wait 6 months trapped in this body is nothing less than touture. What a lot of people who aren't overweight don't understand is, that being overweight, you don't have the drive or motivation to work out; for when I do simple tasks, such as walk up a flight of steps, I feel horrible. Why do I want to spend time working out when it's just going to lower my self-esteem even more? I avoid mirrors....and when I do look at them, I get depressed and start crying. None of my clothes fit. I can't seem to get off the couch. I'm getting stretch marks in new places. I'm just so uncomfortable.

But...every day that goes by is one step closer to my surgery. Hopefully April will come soon.