So sorry Jeni and I know nothing anybody can say will help but I'm going to say it anyway. I do believe everything happens for a reason. When something like this happens, for some reason, it always makes me think back to all the stories that were told after 9/11. There was several different stories but this one really stands out in my head: A lady was walking to work in a brand new pair of shoes when a blister started to form on the back of her heal. She knew she really could not be late for work again. However, the pain from the blister was getting really bad. So, as she was passing a drug store she noticed that it was not crowed. She looked at her watch and quickly ran inside to buy a pack of Band-Aids. Nothing went fast from that point on inside the store. The lady in front of her was extremely slow and need a price check. When she finally got her Band-Aids she had problems putting it on the back of her heel. She had problems getting it opened and then it stuck to her sock and then the next one folded over on itself. You know how bad things can go when u are in a real hurry. So, when she finally succeeded with the Band-Aid she started jogging down the sidewalk to the World Trade Center. She was 5 minutes away when the buildings collapsed. She was a single mom with 3 kids. There were many other story just like this one.
I hope this helps make u feel a little better anyway.